This week is the voting for the UU Blog awards and though I am putting up a good front of pretending not to care about the vote totals, I notice I'm checking in on them a few times every day! So much for not caring, I guess.
I was so astounded to be nominated---and so pleased---that I kind of went into shock for a day or so, mentally futzing around about "should I ask people to vote for me?" or would that be too immodest?
I notice that my cyberpals PeaceBang and ChaliceChick are not a bit shy about asking for votes. Maybe I should get a little more out there.
But this is the season when I'm getting evaluated in a couple of other spots as well, namely my congregations, and I get angsty when people are looking to critique my output, my skills, my way of being in the world. So I guess some of my hesitance is tied to that old question of "what if I ask them to do something and they don't?" What does that mean?
And I keep hearing Sally Fields in the back of my head when she got her first Oscar: "you like me, you really like me!" Sally's a fun gal, but I don't want to emulate that wide-eyed ingenue act. Nosirreebob, Ms. Kitty's got too much pride to do such a thing.
But when you do go browsing past the voting booth and if you haven't voted yet, I won't mind if you vote for me.