I hadn't seen this before now....

but isn't it great?

"Wake up, it's Christmas Morning!"

Just got off the phone with the Favorite Son whose gift was on the doorstep last night after I got home from the Christmas Eve service. Since I can use my Norwegian heritage as an excuse, I opened it the minute I got in the door, rather than wait till Christmas morning.

It was the most beautiful Pendleton blanket I think I've ever seen----very colorful, reversible, with a rainbow motif overlaid with the familiar Native imagery I love on one side, the other side black with the same imagery overlaid.

He has given me many treasured gifts over the years, one of my favorites being a little wooden shelf with a mirror made in shop class decades ago and another being a wooden plaque with the words "cherish love" carved into it. Another is a framed letter to me, on nice paper and in his handwriting:

"Dear Mom" he wrote, "I wanted to handwrite you a note to thank you for all the things you have done for me these past 31 11/12ths years. While many of my actions may seem self-focused, I always am reminded of the wonderful job you did instilling in me the values and morals of a person who takes personal responsibility. Thank you for all the love and support (both emotional and financial). (FDIL) and the kids send their love. I love you. (FS)

I think he gave me this on Mother's Day 2004, if my calculations are correct. And now this beautiful blanket, a Pendleton, invoking my memories of youth and horses and rodeo, with a rainbow woven in, underscoring the importance of our human diversity and a cause for which I have been working much of my life.

Favorite Son, you are the dearest person in my life and your wife and kids are right up there with you. I love you. Merry Christmas (and it's so cool that you liked the sushi basket! just wait till you see the Pendleton cookbook!).

YLMK

Checking my Facebook page....

I see the last minute preparations my FB friends are making: fruitcake! Yule Log! wrapping presents! traveling here and there! cleaning the house! getting a head start on tomorrow's dinner! and, of course, final tweaks in the Christmas Eve service.

Me, I am waiting, in that blissful, contented state of being ready, being prepared, anticipating the evening, looking forward to the silence and the candles and the fir boughs and the singing, Santa Lucia lighting our chalice and her mother reading the chalice words, dear ones helping with the service in the beauty and stillness of our sanctuary as the light dims and the candles flare.

And here I sit, Lily on my lap purring, while music fills the air and the smell of tonight's Christmas Eve soup brings memories of my mother and father and childhood Christmases. I am with them still in spirit, though my parents are gone and my family members are far away tonight.

It's Christmas Eve and waiting is what we do on Christmas Eve. That's one of the luxuries of this time and place in my life---that I can be alone and yet feel surrounded by the love and care of friends and family. I am grateful for the blessings of this life and prayerful that all might feel the peace and joy of the season, whatever winter and babies and light may mean in others' experience. Blessings to you all.

I've been thinking about...

what Christmas has meant to me in the past and what it means now. I don't have my thoughts completely sorted out so I hope you'll bear with me while I do that publicly.

When I was a kid, there was no pretense in our family about Santa Claus. I don't remember my cousins believing in Santa nor any gifts from Santa under the tree, unless it was clearly understood that "Santa" was really just the same as "anonymous"---a person who wanted to give somebody a little something extra. We usually drew names within our extended family and so I always knew who was giving me a present. Santa has really never been a real character in my autobiography, nor has the Tooth Fairy or Easter Bunny, though they were always part of the celebrations. They were stories, not real.

Children of an underpaid Baptist minister didn't have a lot of loot to spend at Christmas; we could earn a little bit by doing chores, but we mostly relied on handouts from the parents to purchase gifts.

I remember a birthday gift I gave my mother one year which scarred me for life because it made her cry! I gave her a library book and spent the quarter she'd given me on myself. I was so ashamed that I went overboard later in life, spending large amounts of money on my immediate family members, trying to make up for it.

And the message was clear, though it took me awhile to sort it out. I started out thinking that a gift I gave that was free to me was worth less than one I spent money on. Since then, my thinking has morphed a few times and I can see that her tears were likely because she felt she had failed to teach me to think of others before myself, not because she wanted a dimestore hanky for her birthday.

So giving and receiving have had a few ups and downs with me. When I was married, I craved romantic presents and always got something useful instead. But we both had a practical bent and I smiled and read love into the crock pot or toaster, as he'd hoped I would. At least until he gave me something he described as warm and furry and kind of bluish grey and useful, which turned out to be a small pistol thrust into a sheepskin holster. Then I wasn't so sure.

After we divorced, there were fewer presents, so each one became extremely important. I gauged the love others had for me by the apparent thought and care given to the gifts chosen. Was it hastily picked out? Ouch. Was it a bargain basement item? Ouch again. Did it come from the grocery store? You get the picture.

Even a little boy's gifts carried risk: did dad pick it out? was it on time? was it carefully chosen? I never doubted my son's love but I most treasured the gifts that he made in shop class or scouts or were clearly picked out just for me and awkwardly bundled in bright paper. (I admit this with trepidation----Favorite Son, don't make too much out of this poor-me phase, because it didn't last that long, though you might see from my struggle how important it is to me that you remember!)

Then one year, there was no way I could be with family or friends on Christmas Day. Everyone was too far away, the passes were slick, the money was tight, and it looked like I would be all alone on Christmas. I had no place to go after the Christmas Eve service but back home, alone. It scared me to think of it.

But as it turned out, that was a turning point for my Christmas spirit. I laid in the supplies for a Christmas Day dinner of prime rib for one, asparagus, a baked potato with sour cream, and mince pie for dessert; I dug out all the John Rutter Christmas music I had plus Robert Shaw and others. I found some special book to read----I don't remember just what---and prepared to be alone and happy. It worked. It was a great Christmas, more restful than I had ever had. The gifts others gave were less important than the gift I gave myself.

In later years I've shared my Christmas Day with other orphans, people who are also alone on that day. This year I'm inviting my musician pals over for turkey and fixings and then we'll break out the instruments and have a jam session. This has become my favorite way to celebrate. Some of my friends are Jewish or Jehovah's Witnesses so it's not a Christmas-themed party. It's just fun.

But Christmas mostly means the beloved work of observing with my congregation the meaning of the birth of a child, of celebrating the winter solstice, of creating a Christmas Eve service that invites the Holy into our midst and sends us home in silence to await the morning and its gifts, both spiritual and material.

It hurt my feelings more than anything...

when Garrison Keillor launched his Salon.com diatribe against Unitarians and our penchant for degenderizing, retheologizing our hymns, in this case our Christmas hymn Silent Night. It wasn't so much that he got a lot of things about our faith or our contributions to the Christmas season wrong; it was more that I had thought he was my friend---my faraway, fellow liberal, funny friend who told good stories, sang gospel harmonies on some of my favorite songs, and poked gentle fun at everyone, including himself.

And he was so mean about his criticism. If he intended to be satirical, it didn't work---at least for me. There's a not so fine line between sarcasm and satire, and he crossed it bigtime. He said hurtful things, not just about my faith but about others whose contributions to the Christmas season were good-hearted and creative. And he said it all right after the Unitarian Universalist church in Cambridge MA had hosted a book-signing and reading for him. Talk about gratitude!

That said, I am concerned for him. He had heart surgery a couple of years ago and recently had a mild stroke. I think it's possible that he has suffered an undiagnosed traumatic brain injury that has changed his perception of things, affected his disposition and judgment, and has contributed to a loss of good sense and good writing as revealed in his recent rant.

I have known people who have had similar health events and were changed by them, physically, emotionally and mentally. They began to hurt people with their criticisms, they insulted friends and family members in their frustration with their own limitations, and they narrowed their worlds even more because of the social isolation their behavior incurred.

I hope for his sake that he takes the outpouring of hurt and rebuttal seriously and reconsiders what he has written. (And maybe sees his doc for a change of meds. Or maybe a shrink.) As one of my colleagues has suggested, Christmas is a time of inclusion, not of exclusion of anyone who is not "in the club". Keillor's remark that "if you're not in the club, buzz off" shows a remarkably narrow interpretation of Jesus' message of inclusion.

So if I were his pastor, I'd suggest a little spiritual direction, a little prayer, a little humility, a little redemption and reconciliation. After all, it's Christmas.

Speaking of taking liberties with Christmas...

I offer this rendition of the Hallelujah Chorus:

The Dying of the Year...

reminds me, this year, how many people I know and care for who are in the last days, weeks, months, years of their lives. I must know at least ten people who are fighting off cancer, some successfully, some not. Other dear ones are growing very old and frail. Sunday I will offer a memorial service for a beloved member of our congregation, Hildred Cyr, who succumbed to Pickwickian Syndrome (imbalance of Co2/H2O) and other maladies. A few days ago I got a note from a friend whose cancer has been unbeatable, wanting to talk about her own memorial service.

We have an aging congregation, many approaching age 90. Others are chronically ill with one thing or another. At least one person is in the last weeks of his life, expecting to make it through Christmas and then...perhaps Death with Dignity, if he is able. My own aging is more and more apparent to me as I down my vitamins and a couple of meds to ward off this or that and decide whether today the aches are bad enough to take some ibuprofen.

As I prepare for Sunday's memorial service and consider the prospect of another one or two on its heels, I feel weighted down by this aspect of ministry, even as I feel honored by the opportunity to accompany mourners in their grief. But my grief needs to be put aside temporarily so that I have the emotional space and can be present to theirs.

So I have prepared the eulogy for Sunday with tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat, missing this woman's presence and yet relieved that her struggle is over. And on Sunday, we will light the chalice in her honor, I will tell her story, we will listen to others' stories, we'll comfort each other, and we will complete part of the important work of saying goodbye.

I love this work deeply yet I am also exhausted by it on occasion. This is one of those times, yet I would not give it up for anything. I know that the strength will be there when I need it, that I am not alone either in my grief or in my joy, and that to be present at these moments of human life is an honor and a blessing.

Amen, Shalom, Salaam, and Blessed Be.

I should be writing a eulogy, but...

this has been a momentous week, in some ways. Much of it is too confidential to reveal; it's others' story, not mine. But I have seen courage in action, I have seen the destructive force of rumor and gossip causing pain and anguish on both sides of an issue, and I have been able to be part of the solution, or at least its beginning. And that was just Monday! There are still loose ends to be dealt with, reassurances to offer, safety ensured, but a damaging situation seems to have been headed off. And I am thankful.

The eulogy is for a complicated, beloved woman in our congregation whose life story is one of heartache, illness, joy, and passion for social justice. The trick in writing a eulogy is to portray honestly the life of the person who has died; if there are warts and blemishes, serious ones, they must be revealed but lovingly, always keeping in mind that the eulogy has been written for the survivors, to acknowledge the struggles they've experienced, the anger, the joy, the muddy legacy of a human life.

That's my main job for today. The service is on Sunday afternoon; fortunately it's our Christmas music service and I don't have to speak. I want this memorial service to be beautiful, as I loved this woman very much despite her warts and blemishes. So I want to choose my words carefully and lovingly, mindful of the pain her family has experienced during her lifetime, mindful of the affection the congregation had for her, mindful that somewhere in the ether (could it be so?) she may be listening, hoping for truth and compassion.

I went up to Oak Harbor yesterday to run some errands and get the oil changed in my car. At the JiffyLube I go to regularly, the young mechanic said to me, as he was ringing up the sale, "I like your Referendum 71 sticker. My partner and I have been together for three years and we are so glad for the legislation. We feel a little safer now but we hope someday we'll have full marriage rights."

I mentioned that I'd been working for marriage equality for a long time and he asked me what agency I worked with. I told him I was a UU minister and that our denomination has been active in this civil rights issue for many years. "Oh," he said, his face lighting up, "where's your church?" I told him we're just north of Freeland and said it would be great if he and his partner would come visit. "We just might," he said, "we just might."

I felt like hugging him right there on the spot but restrained myself, not knowing what his status is at the shop. I guess I'll have to wait until he and his beloved come to church!

Like I said, what a week it's been! And now it's only Wednesday.

Herded by Cats

I am a hostage, captured, imprisoned, surrounded by creatures who govern my every move. No action in my day goes unobserved, no plan I make is unaffected, no decision I carry out is incognizant of my captivity.

I am physically harassed and tortured daily; orders to "hurry up" or "sit down" or "get out the canopener" besiege me. Flying filaments too slender to be seen, too adhesive to be removed, too annoying to ignore fill the corners of my rooms, clog my vacuum filter and air return vents, tickle my nose and litter my clothing.

I am hostage, I tell you, and a victim of the Stockholm syndrome. I feed my captors, offer them medical care even when they don't desire it, get others to care for them when I am away, and worry about them the whole time.

Loosy, the elder of the three yet not the alpha cat except in her own mind, pesters me for lap time, licks my hand subserviently without actually acceding domination points, gazes benignly into my eyes though I know she is plotting how she can land a tongue on my face. When company arrives, she complains loudly about my behavior, accusing me of never petting her, never paying any attention to her, never letting her get on my lap. She continues this charade until the visitor, charmed (or revolted) by her plaints, sits down and makes a lap. Then she's in that lap in a flash, especially if the visitor has black slacks on or hates cat hair. She circles the lap, presenting her posterior in the most obscene way, until the visitor is forced to pay attention and either shoo her away or pet her and remark on her unbelievably blue eyes. What a con artist!


Lily, the heavyweight tortoiseshell wuss, considers it her duty to patrol the house at all hours yowling loudly. Nobody knows what she's yowling about but cat whisperers locally think it may be a safety valve for her pent-up anxieties, namely keeping all the denizens of the household in her sights. She worries about where Loosy is. She watches the window for Max. She sits outside my closed bedroom door at 5 a.m., ready to give the signal that it's time for me to get up and pay attention to my jailers. She goes out, she comes in, she goes out, she comes in, she cringes when I speak sharply to her on the umpteenth time; she goes out, she comes in, she wants to go out again and cringes when I yell "NO, LILY!" at her in exasperation. Then she slinks around the house looking at me like an abuse victim might look at the abuser, scared but hopeful for love.


Max the Magnificent (aka Murderer and Maimer of Many) blithely conducts his life as a conqueror in absentia. Max is gone most of the time, out killing things, sometimes bringing them home as proof that he is not being idle or catting around with losers. He comes home only long enough to eat everything in the catfood dish, sleep like a rock for several hours, eat again, and go out on his rounds, occasionally waiting until everyone is sound asleep to come scratching at the window for re-entry. He bullies Loosy when he's inside yet sides with Lily on the bed, lying back to back with her as though to guard the perimeters. Nightly he comes to my bed for love, nuzzling and purring and closing his eyes in ecstasy; I am inevitably taken in by this ploy and forgive him the next time he comes home at 4 a.m.


My sister tells me that you have to have four cats to be a real Cat Lady, so I am safe right now. But this morning in the local paper I noticed an ad for black and white kittens who need a good home. Luckily somebody barfed on it before I had a chance to cut the ad out. Judging by the size of the hairball, it must have been....?

A reflection on the diversity of UU congregations

In my years of being active in UU churches, both here and in Colorado, I have noticed great differences regionally between UU churches. As an active participant on the UUMA ministers' chat, I've observed the differences in attitude between UU ministers, to some extent related to the region of the country they are serving. Reading blogs and Facebook entries from contributors and friends across the country, I notice the same thing: churches and staff members and ministers have widely different experiences, depending on the region of our nation they serve.

Recently I had a chance to ask a friend who travels extensively for the UUA this question: if you were a fly on the ceiling, looking down on the US and the various geographic/cultural regions of the country, how might you characterize the differences between districts of the UUA, in attitude, in growth patterns, that sort of thing.

I won't try to reproduce the answer here because I didn't take notes, but I was left with a few impressions which seem to underscore my own observations. And those I will try to describe.

New England UU congregations are numerous but they are not growing in numbers or strength. It is from those ministers and members that I hear a lot of "UUism is dying" complaints. One informal trend my friend noted was that when one church in a given population strip (say between Boston and its outlying areas) starts to grow, the others tend to lose membership. Churches in New England are only a few miles apart, so distance is not much of a factor; the suspicion is that the growth is due to people leaving one UU church for another. My friend also had noticed that churches in a region don't know much about what's going on with the other UU churches nearby. My friend noted, too, that New England churches tend to be either pretty solidly Christian or non-Christian in flavor. Most have big old buildings to maintain, which is a heavy financial obligation, especially with historical buildings.

Southern UU congregations are pretty juicy and interesting places to be. In the South and Southwest areas, aka the Bible Belt, UU congregations are often the local oasis of liberal thought and tend to attract a lot of people who are eager to associate with other like-minded folks and offset the heavily fundamentalist atmosphere of the area. However, this atmosphere meant that most folks were familiar with Christian language and able to speak it as necessary.

Pacific Southwest congregations are "California" in nature, reflecting the West Coast atmosphere of experimentation, new age spirituality, pop culture, growing steadily. Mountain Desert congregations are also juicy and energetic, with new congregations emerging in less-populous areas to serve local UUs and make it less necessary for them to travel to larger cities for their religious fix.

Midwest congregations are solidly Midwestern, with all the qualities we think of as native to the Midwest: strong, steady, working to overcome local problems, perhaps growing slowly, hit very hard by the recession.

Pacific Northwest congregations are growing pretty steadily. Our district has been dubbed "the district that does" and many other districts look to us for programming and to pilot new programs. Many ministers in this district have been in the same congregation for ten and more years. Few want to re-locate elsewhere.

When I hear my colleagues say that "UUism is dying" and that we will be extinct in a matter of years if we don't get on the stick, I always want to find out where they're serving. My experience of UUism is that we are growing strongly, at least in the regions I'm most familiar with, and that we are far from dead.

I'd be interested in hearing from folks who live in other areas. How do you think your region of the country differs in its UU nature from other regions? (I haven't included Canada in this, as I haven't formed an opinion, though the BC congregations and ministers I know seem to be positive about their growth.)

Who Was Jesus?

WHO WAS JESUS?
Rev. Kit Ketcham, Dec. 6, 2009

The dreadful tragedy a week ago of the four Lakewood police officers gunned down in cold blood, on top of another heartless killing of a Seattle officer a month earlier, on top of the many other incidences over the years of men and women whose jobs or ideals or commitments have led them into dangerous places---all these have resulted in our calling these men and women heroes. And they are.

The hero figure in our culture may emerge from a variety of circumstances: Shane, for example, who came to a prairie homestead in the movie High Noon to fight bad guys and then ride off into the sunset; the warrior who throws himself on a grenade to save his comrades; the President-elect who seems to fulfill all the dreams of his constituents; the prophet who speaks a new language of resistance without violence; the woman who starts a new kind of agency---nursing, social work, environmental awareness; the woman who breaks social barriers to make her way in space exploration, music and art, labor relations.

But the primary characteristic of hero figures, I’ve noticed, is their courage, a courage that sometimes appears to come out of nowhere but is instead the result of an inner resolve to put others’ wellbeing ahead of ones’ own.

This past week, I met with the North Olympic Ministers Cluster, a group of UU ministers representing Bremerton, Port Townsend, Port Angeles, Bainbridge Island, and Whidbey Island. We get together every few months to spend the day in talking about ministry issues, considering some theological or pastoral concern, worshiping together, and having some fun at the same time.

It was my turn to bring the worship service to my colleagues and as I have been wrestling with issues of courage myself, thinking about how courage is a facet of spiritual maturity, and linking all this thinking to today’s message about spiritual and religious heroes, I decided that the theme of my worship would be “courage”, moral and spiritual courage.

Let me read you the story that was the foundation of our worship time together. It’s by Kaaren Solveig Anderson and is entitled “The Kindness of Lo Mein”.

My friend Marcy and her boyfriend Brian recently ate dinner at a local Chinese restaurant. As they enjoyed a plate of lo mein, engrossed in conversation, a hand reached down and ushered away their platter of noodles. A voice quick and agitated mumbled “Sorry!” and a thin, poorly dressed woman left the restaurant with their plate of lo mein.

In astonishment, they watched her walk down the street, holding the plate with the flat of her hand as she stuffed noodles into her mouth, slapping sharply against her face. The owner realized what had happened and darted out the front door, chasing after the noodle thief. He stood firmly in front of her, blocking her way and grabbing a side of the plate. A struggle ensued, noodles slid uneasily from one side to the other, slopping over the edge. He surged forward and pulled with a heroic strongarm attempt to retrieve his plate. The woman’s fingers slid from the plate. Noodles flew, then flopped pathetically on the sidewalk.

Left empty-handed, with soggy, contaminated noodles at her feet, the woman stood with arms hung dejectedly at her side. The owner walked victoriously back to the restaurant with the soiled plate in hand. My friends were given a new heaping plate of lo mein, although they had already consumed half of the stolen plate. A stream of apology in Chinese came from the proprietor. Unable to eat anymore, they asked to have the noodles wrapped up and set off to see their movie.

A block later, they happened upon the lo mein thief. The woman was hypercharged. She simultaneously cried, convulsed, and shouted at a man, who rapidly retreated from her side. My friend, unsure about what to do, listened to her boyfriend’s plea to just walk away. But she didn’t. Instead, she walked over to the thief and said, “Ah, we haven’t formally met, but about ten minutes ago, you were interested in our noodles. They gave us some new ones, are you still hungry?” The woman nodded and extended her bony arms. She took the styrofoam container in her hands, bowed ever so slightly, and murmured, “Thank you, you’re very kind.”

What makes us walk away from discomfort? Or stay? You could say a lot about my friend’s story—a lot about generosity, kindness, attention, and thievery. I’m more interested in what motivates us to confront that which makes us uncomfortable and makes us look at the guts and grit of decisions, the choices to… address things that are uncomfortable, uneasy, unbalanced, unnatural, unbelievable. When our foundations start to shake, we can feel the tremors move up our legs and into our torsos. And we want more than anything to make it stop. Any how. Any way.

My friend Marcy could feel herself shake. I know because she told me so. But she chose not to walk away, she dealt with (her discomfort). She held firm in the muck. Sometimes, that’s all we need or can do to get to the other side—the side where generosity, comfort, and kindness reside, the side where foundations are firm and stable. Where one’s shaking walks back to the other side.

I asked my colleagues, after the story, to take a few moments in silence to think about their own experiences of courage---what makes them shake in their boots, as ministers?

After the silence we swapped experiences for a few moments; it turned out that most of us felt fearful about times when we were in conflict with someone. None of us had gone into the ministry to fight battles, yet we often dealt with conflict---our own conflict with someone who disagreed with us or the conflict between others within our congregations or even in our families. We’re lovers, not fighters. Yet in order to be effective leaders, we have to have the courage to face conflict and deal with it.

Some mentioned the courage of taking a prophetic stand on an unpopular issue; others spoke of leaving a familiar career behind in order to enter the challenging field of ministry. Someone mentioned the wellknown question of leaders in every field: “is this a hill I’m willing to die on?”, meaning “is this issue and my stand on it something I’m willing to risk my career for?”

Another mentioned the loneliness and strain of being the confidential ear for the many struggles of beloved congregants and the daily courage required to be pastoral when we have few solutions to those problems except for our presence.

So where does that courage come from, I asked them. Where do we find it when we need it? Where did we learn it? From what depths does it arise? Why do we do the courageous things we do? As ministers, yes, but also as human beings?

More silence and then, slowly, came the thoughts: I do it because it’s the right thing to do. I do it because the consequences of NOT doing it are too great. I do it because the issue is too important to ignore. I do it because I watched my dad or my mom or my grandparent or my friend, my mentor do it.

Others said: my courage comes from a lifetime of observing others’ courage and wondering what I would do under the same circumstances; or, my courage comes from a foundation of past experiences and my commitment to act in compassionate and loving ways.

At the end of the worship service, I closed with a quick benediction and then it was time for lunch. But the conversation stuck with me and when I sat down at the computer to write, it was still there.

I tell you all this today because our theme for this holiday month of December is related to religious and spiritual heroism. Jesus was and is the hero of Christianity; Moses, of Judaism; Siddhartha Gautama, of Buddhism; Mohammed, of Islam.

These ancient heroes had the courage to follow their own convictions and consciences and founded new religious paths, in the face of danger and banishment by the traditional religious authorities of their time.

Moses left the comforts of Pharaoh’s palace as his adopted son and joined forces with his people, the Hebrews, who were slaves. He made this decision when he saw a slave-master beating a man; he killed the slave master and fled for his life, back to his people. He was the leader who brought the Hebrew peoples together and led them out of Egypt.

Siddhartha Gautama left behind his old life as a prince in the ancient kingdom of Kapilvastu, now Nepal, living as an ascetic, in poverty, to discover the true meaning of life. Buddhism, founded on an ethic of compassion for human suffering and eradication of that suffering by a path of Four Noble Truths, was a reform movement of Hinduism and consequently would have put Gautama, in conflict with the traditional path of his countrymen. Little is written about the consequences to this spiritual hero of his radical transformation. Buddhism is a non-theistic religion, for the most part, though the Buddha is sometimes worshipped as a god; but Hinduism is a poly-theistic religion. And I don’t suppose people were any more open to huge religious changes then than they are now!

Mohammed is seen to be a reformer as well, reforming the traditional monotheistic path of Judaism with its purity laws and traditional views of the Divine. His radical call to complete surrender to Allah met with hostility from his countrymen, initially, and the persecution that followed caused Mohammed and his few followers to flee. Utter surrender to Allah and the wishes of Allah as revealed in the Koran engender another kind of conflict within Islam even today.

And Jesus, whose birth we celebrate this month (even though he was probably born in the springtime), was a revolutionary hero, steeped in both the laws of the Torah and in the wisdom he had gained through contemplation and study and experience probably gained outside of traditional Judaism. As a revolutionary, Jesus encountered turmoil and opposition to his teachings from the entrenched religious and political leaders of his day, both Jewish and Roman.

But Jesus was not a revolutionary in the mold of Lenin or Stalin or Che; he was different. Though religion and politics share many issues, Jesus was a religious revolutionary. Who was he, in the eyes of a non-Christian historian of the first century? Here’s a quote from Josephus, written about the year 90, of the common era, otherwise known as Anno. Domini., the year of our lord:

At this time there appeared Jesus, a wise man. For he was a doer of startling deeds, a teacher of people who received the truth with pleasure. And he gained a following both among many Jews and among many of Greek origin (that is, Gentile). And when Pilate, because of an accusation made by the leading men among us, condemned him to the cross, those who had loved him previously did not cease to do so. And up until this very day, the tribe of Christians (named after him) has not died out.

These are the comments of a man who was not a follower of Jesus yet admired him for his personal strength and the strength of the love of his followers.

Marcus Borg, a scholar who participates in the controversial “Jesus Seminar”, which attempts to sort out Jesus’s life as a historical figure, as a prophet and as the founder of a new religion, has summarized Josephus’s opinion this way:

Jesus was a “wise man”, a teacher of wisdom. He did “startling deeds”, a reference to his reputation as a healer. He gained a following among both Jews and Gentiles. He was crucified by order of the Roman governor after he was accused by “leading men” among the Jews. His followers continued to love him after his death. His followers became known as Christians and continued to exist when Josephus wrote this passage near the end of the first century.

As a historian, Josephus chronicled the turbulence of the first century under Roman rule. He was a devout, observant Jew, with priestly and royal blood, who survived and recorded the destruction of Jerusalem in the year 70 of the common era.

Josephus’s reference to Jesus is the only non-Christian reference to him from the first century. Everything else written about him in the first century and later comes from his followers, whose lives had been changed by following him. They saw Jesus as the revelation of God, of what can be seen of God in a human life and of what a life filled with God looks like.

Our Unitarian Universalist roots are deeply embedded in Christianity and many of us consider ourselves Christian Unitarian Universalists, just as others consider themselves Buddhist UUs or Sufi UUs or Jewish UUs or Pagan UUs.

But we diverged as a spiritual path when we began to disagree with the institutional church which developed out of the Apostle Paul’s teachings, perhaps most decisively when the institutional church declared that Jesus was indeed God, even though he did not himself claim that distinction.

Many early dissenters from traditional theological positions were persecuted and even martyred for their beliefs, including our forefather the Spanish doctor Michael Servetus who died at the direction of John Calvin in Geneva, Switzerland in the 16th century.

And there are many ways that we diverge from institutional Christianity today, yet honor the teachings of Jesus as prophet, teacher, and radical revolutionary.

As I made the journey from traditional Christianity to a more radical religious view, one in which I honor and attempt to follow Jesus’ teachings, I realized that there are at least two varieties of the religion Jesus inspired. There is the religion “about Jesus”, focused on his supposedly perfect life, his membership in the Trinity, and the startling deeds of which Josephus speaks. A religion “about Jesus” takes the Gospel stories as history, as fact, and denies validity to those who do not.

Another variety is the religion “of Jesus”, focused on his teachings of compassion, of justice, and of a metaphorical Kingdom of Heaven which is within each person’s heart.

All of Jesus’ teachings can be taken either literally or metaphorically. The Gospels can be read as history or as legend. If we take these ancient writings literally, we will find ourselves boxed in by the revelations of science and rationality, with a limited ability to grow spiritually. In addition, scholarly work which examines the implications of ancient language and culture often deconstructs traditional assumptions about the meaning and validity of an historical view.

If we take the writings metaphorically, we have much more room to grow spiritually, as we find the meaning of the stories in the Gospels to be applicable to our own lives today.

Was Jesus born on Dec. 25 in Bethlehem? Probably not, for shepherds would likely not have been in the fields on a cold winter’s night. Did angels appear? Was there a star? Astronomers are divided on the issue of a star or a blazing nova in the east at that moment in time. Angels? The skeptic in me says no.

But the birth of a baby, a boy child whose life and moral example gave the ancient world, and us today, a new look at how we might become close to God, close to one another, close to a sense that our lives too can be meaningful----this is a story I can relate to.

Jesus, no matter who he was historically, courageously offered humankind a new way to be in the world, a way that transcended oppression, injustice, poverty, and fear. Though his disciples didn’t get it, nor do many of us today “get it”, Jesus offered a radically inclusive, egalitarian vision of how life could be, in direct opposition to the hidebound and corrupt religions of the day.

As Gloria and I talked about this service and how we wanted to shape it, she suggested I consider the book by Deepak Chopra entitled “The Third Jesus, the Christ We Cannot Ignore”---and she loaned it to me.

I’d like to close with this thought inspired by Chopra’s work: Jesus tried to teach his followers how to reach a state of God-consciousness, a state in which a human being feels so much a part of the universe, so much a part of God’s love, so connected to his or her fellow creatures, both human and non-human, that lives would be changed, transcending the ugliness of undisciplined human nature and the depredations of a life in which others controlled every act, instilled fear of punishment and humiliation, and offered no hope for tomorrow.

For me, this is the blessing of the spiritual hero named Jesus, that he taught that we can be happier than we are, we can feel more at home in this universe, we have more to give than we can imagine, and that in giving, we receive hope.

Let’s pause for a time of silent reflection and prayer.

BENEDICTION: Our worship service, our time of shaping worth together, is ended, but our service to the world begins again as we leave this place. Let us go in peace, remembering our own courage and how we reach out in uncomfortable moments to others who need us. May we see the prophet and teacher Jesus as a role model for moral courage and may we act upon our convictions to make this world a more just and loving place. Amen, Shalom, Salaam, and Blessed Be.

We Have Nothing to Fear from Love and Commitment

Senator Diane Savino speaks to the NY State Senate.

Moral Courage---who has it and what does it mean?

Our worship theme for December is "the roles of religious heroes (Jesus, the Buddha, Moses, Mohammed, etc.) and what we can learn from them; this Sunday I am specifically preaching on Jesus and his message to Unitarian Universalists.

Being as how we don't see Jesus as God, we have a different take on Jesus' message to humankind. We see Jesus as a great teacher, a radical, a reformer, a prophet, a preacher, a changer of lives. But not God. (In fact, it's long been a puzzle to me why religious traditionalists are so stuck on the idea of Jesus as God. God's son, perhaps, but also the son of a human mother. Just like I am God's daughter. But let's not stray off into that territory---my topic is moral courage.)

Moral courage, like Jesus had, like Moses had, like Siddhartha Gautama had, like Mohammed had, like the millions of human beings who have died for their ideals, their commitments, their concern for others.

As a child I was taught that Jesus never did anything wrong, that he was perfect from day one, that his little indiscretions (running away from home to go sit with the rabbis in the temple, for example, and scaring his parents to death) were in the service of a higher calling. It was a little hard to accept; all the boys I knew were naughty at times and I could hardly believe that Jesus was any different.

In seminary, I revisited the story of Jesus's meeting the Syro-Phoenician woman, who asked him to heal her daughter. He initially rejected her but she spoke so eloquently and clearly of her need that he relented and did what she asked. Jesus changed his mind about what the right thing was to do! Heavens!

That took moral courage, for sure. It meant changing his mission, from convincing the Jews that the kingdom of God was inside oneself to convincing Gentiles as well, much to the dismay and surprise of his followers.

Who has that kind of moral courage today? Who are the "Gentiles" who need a break, whose lives are of little concern to the authorities, whose civil rights are not important, whose families are not important.

Sorry, I'm off on my favorite rant. I just wish there was a little more moral courage in our world today.

I JUST DON'T GET IT

Makes Me Proud to be a Norwegian!

If you're ever looking for a rhythm section for your band...

Sweet Georgia Brown

Wahoo! Student loans are PAID OFF as of yesterday!

For the past ten years I have been dutifully, by auto-pay from my credit union account, making an almost $400 monthly payment to my student loan debt from seminary. And yesterday I made the final payment, of about $125. It's going to be a welcome boost to my bottom line.

Elsewhere in the blogosphere, there is a conversation going on about the financial aspects of studying for the ministry. The cost is steep and it takes a long time to work off the debt, if you borrow, as I did.

I was lucky to have retired from a 25 year position as a public school employee, so I had a small pension when I started seminary, but it wasn't enough to pay tuition and books as well, so I had to supplement that income with student loans. I also eagerly took any preaching or workshop gigs I could line up and at about $150 apiece, that helped pay the bills as well. I was so fortunate to have a member of my home congregation offer to buy my books each quarter. That dear family spent about a $1000 paying for my books over the three academic years I was at Iliff. Thank you, Wiley and Bev!

But it was hard times, as I had been a single parent for several years and the FS was barely launched, meaning that I had some credit card debt to deal with as well as a mortgage and sundry other stuff. My pension was far less than my salary had been and I needed every penny. Hence the loans.

At the end of seminary in May of 99, I had acquired over $36,000 in student debt and six months later, in December of 1999, as I began my first ministry, the monthly payment kicked in. When I decided to go into parttime ministry in 2003, it was a consideration---I needed enough income to be able to pay that monthly debt, rent, car payment, and health insurance. So I took two quarter-time positions, Vashon Island and Whidbey Island UUs, and managed pretty well, but without my pension, I would have had to go back into my former line of work. Or starve, possibly. And there were moments in the night when I pondered those very choices.

But I've managed to stay afloat financially and even prosper, though my standard of living has never been particularly inflated; I have a comfortable home, car, wardrobe, furnishings, and Medicare. And I eat well, perhaps too well sometimes. The cats are cared for and I can even afford an occasional antibiotic shot for Max, who occasionally needs one.

My situation is good because I'm older, have had time to raise my family, get my financial status solid if not affluent, and have learned what's really valuable to me. If I were a lot younger, hoping to someday have a church of my own while raising children, even with the help of a mate, seminary would have been a huge challenge.

I admire so much those younger seminarians and other students who have taken on that huge challenge out of their sense of call and are working steadily toward their goal. It isn't easy to be a student in mid-life, with family responsibilities and other volunteer activities to maintain. But you are doing it and doing it well. Congratulations!

Considering Spiritual Maturity

ABUNDANCE IN FEARFUL TIMES:
The Rewards of Spiritual Maturity
Rev. Kit Ketcham, Nov. 22, 2009

Sing with me if you remember this old spiritual:

"Nobody knows the trouble I’ve seen, nobody knows my sorrow,
Nobody knows the trouble I’ve seen, glory hallelujah.
Sometimes I’m up, sometimes I’m down, oh yes, Lord,
Sometimes I’m almost to the ground, oh yes Lord.
Nobody knows the trouble I’ve seen, nobody knows my sorrow,
Nobody knows the trouble I’ve seen, glory “hallelujah.”

For the past several years we have been living in fearful times, haven’t we? For many of us it may have started with the events of Sept. 11, 2001. For others, the election of leaders who seemed at odds with human values and human rights. For some, it may have been a diagnosis of serious illness or job loss or forced retirement or low income. Perhaps our children have struggled with issues we could not fix. Or parents, siblings, other loved ones have been troubled or ill or needy.

Perhaps that’s actually the general human condition, just made worse by current circumstances. For who can remember a time when all was rosy, all was smiles and joy, all was positive and lighthearted? And yet, who can remember a time when all was bleak and dark, all was death and decay, all was negative and foreboding?

Life tends to be a combination of events and moods, highs and lows, at least for most of us. But there’s no getting around it----life is rarely free of struggle and difficulty. Even here today, some of us are worried about whether we will make it financially, or whether our children are going to be okay, or whether a job will come through, or whether our savings will last as long as our lives. The economic downturn across the globe has made it hard for everyone and even harder for many of us.

And yet, it’s Thanksgiving, the beginning of a plethora of holidays that celebrate the light side of life, not the dark side.

Sometimes it helps to name the worries, either aloud or to ourselves. So let’s just throw out some of the things we know that we and other folks are struggling with at this time:

Okay, so those are the worries, as many as we could think of in a short time. What are the joys? The things that are not dependent on our income or our health or our work or our elected leaders? Let’s call them out as well:

So life has its sorrows and its joys and we can name them. But despite our ability to look at life objectively, we may still be more troubled by the deficits than pleased by the rewards. We’re human, after all, and gloriously imperfect!

If you’re like me, you may pick and choose what news you take in, what TV programs you’re willing to invest time in, what books you read for deeper knowledge. There is a streak in me that worries that if I know too much about Afghanistan or torture or the latest conspiracy theory, I’ll lose my sanity. It’s not that I don’t care, it’s more that I can care so much that I lose my perspective.

And it’s then that I wake up in the night obsessing about one thing or another: will my pension be cut? Will the church have to be repossessed? Will I do something to ruin my relationships? Will my sister or brother or son or friend get desperately ill? Will someone I love start to dislike me because of something I’ve said or done?

We all have these moments in life, I think. It’s part of the human condition. And yet some of us seem to be more resilient than others of us. It’s either that they have strong positive optimist genes or they have learned ways of coping with sorrow and joy that transcend instinctive responses. I think it’s called maturity. We all can grow and mature, but it can be hard.

Also, there is more than one kind of maturity, isn’t there? We know all about physical maturation-----the development from fetus to infant to toddler to older child to adolescent to young adult to adult. This process has its own timeline and is helped along by proper nutrition and health care.

There’s also emotional maturity, the ability to cope with a loss or crisis that does not result in damage to oneself or to others. Emotional maturity is helped to develop by loving and trustworthy relationships with others, particularly in childhood.

Mental maturity is related to cognitive processes, the ability to think clearly, to evaluate a situation and to make choices based on a critical thought process. Mental maturity is developed through mental stimulation and learning, observation of cause and effect.

But there’s another kind of maturity that intrigues me and has occupied my thoughts ever since Lois mentioned it in her November president’s column. She wrote about “spiritual maturity” and her hope that we as a congregation might strive for spiritual maturity in our own individual lives and in the life of this congregation.

We talked about it a bit one day at our monthly meeting and I got more intrigued myself and decided to investigate it more deeply. Since then, Sara and I have talked about what it might mean to be spiritually mature and how the idea might relate to our theme today of Abundance in Fearful Times.

Because perhaps that’s what we need to experience abundance in fearful times---a spiritual maturity (in addition to all the physical, emotional and mental maturity we can muster), a spiritual maturity that helps us be resilient, that helps us use all our maturity to enhance our own lives and make the lives of others better as well. Spiritual maturity implies the ability to reach out to others in compassion and with a desire to be of service.

What might be the characteristics of a spiritually mature person? I brainstormed that a bit myself and also with Sara and some other UU friends and came up with a long list of desirable traits. A very long list. A list of the requirements for being able to walk on water!

One reference from the Christian scriptures seemed concise enough to summarize many of them, and that was Galatians 5, verses 22 and 23, where Paul the apostle is writing to the church in Galatia, centuries ago:

“But the fruit of the Spirit is Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self-Control.” That says a lot right there, but it doesn’t say it all.

It’s interesting to me that Paul never mentions gratitude, which I think is foundational to a spiritual life. He also doesn’t mention wisdom, perhaps thinking that only he had the wisdom new Christians required! And he doesn’t mention a desire to learn, also a pre-requisite, in my book, to a fulfilling spiritual life.

Of course, his horizons were limited by political boundaries, by Roman and Hebrew culture, and by his own interpretation of what Jesus’ followers should do. Mostly he thought they should do what he said---he being Paul, not necessarily Jesus! Paul thought pretty highly of himself, because he was a Roman citizen, and ego was a big part of his struggle to be a good person. He knew this about himself and prayed mightily for self-control, but he was human, just we are.

There are a few other qualities, however, that are the mark of a spiritually mature person, things Paul probably never dreamed of, that we have learned over the past centuries of human life and self-understanding, seeing the pitfalls of a limited religious life, a life which has only one path, only one set of guidelines, only one way to achieve salvation---which was for Paul the only goal, getting to heaven.

I had made a list of the qualities that Sara and I and other UU pals had mentioned that weren’t associated with Paul’s list in his letter to the Galatian church, so I tried lining them up with our seven principles to see if there were any patterns.

And here are some characteristics of spiritually mature persons that go beyond Paul’s list and reflect our 7 Principles.

Openness and an understanding and acceptance of others’ values and ideas is a hallmark of a spiritually mature Unitarian Universalist. Openness makes each of our principles more accessible because each of them requires us to stretch our thinking beyond the old ways we might have grown up with. When we are open-minded, open-hearted, openly-welcoming, we invite into our lives the wisdom others offer.

Courage to change our minds and our behavior is another mark of spiritual maturity in our tradition. Over the years of evolution of UUism we have moved from liberal Christianity to scientific humanism to a blend of spirituality and rationality, the primary flavor of our religious theology today.

Along this journey, we all have had to let new ideas in; Christians learned the value of science and rationality in scouting out a religious path and humanists learned the value of spiritual awareness. As a consequence, though we follow a typical Christian-type order of service in our worship and use many traditional words such as worship, God, faith, that sort of thing, we have found new understandings for some of those words because the old ones don’t say what we mean. Yet we know that these words are valuable because of their history and weight and we have learned to translate them when we hear them, rather than getting offended.

Another characteristic connected to spiritual maturity and related to courage, I think, is the willingness to be self-critical, to look at our beliefs, our behaviors, our thoughts, our abilities, and strive for integrity between our actions and our values. When we are wrong, we must be willing to admit it and make amends if we have hurt someone else. If we can escape the trap of defensiveness and excuse-making OR the trap of needing excessive praise to stroke our egos, we are on the way to greater spiritual maturity.

A desire for continuous learning is another facet of spiritual maturity. We can’t just quit growing; we have to keep learning, in order to deepen our human experience and open ourselves wider to life. We learn from all our life’s experiences, whether they are joyous or sorrowful, boring or exciting. Staying open to new learnings is essential to our maturity.

And finally, perhaps, spiritually mature folks need a healthy sense of humor, even when the humor is directed at ourselves. Can we laugh at ourselves? Is it painful to see our foibles out there in plain sight? Of course it is! But this quality may, of all the qualities, be one of the most valuable. It is a mark of our authenticity, our realness, to see the humor in our lives, use it as a springboard for self-examination, and make changes if we need to.

This is not an intensive treatment, obviously. You could add other ideas, I’m sure. But now let’s think about the spiritual maturity of our congregation.

Unitarian Universalist author Michael Durall has written a good deal about the role of Unitarian Universalist congregations in the larger community and his challenge to us here today is to take the journey toward spiritual maturity not only as individuals but as a congregation.

Durall suggests that if we individuals become more spiritually mature, our congregation will mature as well. It takes courage to become spiritually mature as individuals; it requires us to look at our attitudes and behavior and change those that are not directed toward making ourselves better people and the world a better place.

Courage is required of congregations as well and Durall states that we must have courage to act on our principles. We are not here just to make ourselves and each other happy. We are here to use our common commitment to our ideals to reach out into the world and to make others’ lives better. We are here to empower each other, to challenge each other to live more purposeful lives, and provide each other the courage to make the world a better place in which to live.

These ideas resonate with me. I believe that spiritually mature people act upon a congregation in ways that inspire and encourage everyone. When people within these walls get excited about something like healing for vets or civil rights for sexual minorities or torture abolishment, we all get drawn in by their enthusiasm, and as we know more about their concerns, we learn how we ourselves might become involved.

So how do we go about developing a more spiritual life as individuals so that we might inspire and encourage our congregation’s maturity? Here’s what I think.

First of all, we who want to become spiritually mature must make a definite commitment to doing so, setting a goal of constant growth toward greater spiritual maturity. It will be a lifelong goal, not something we achieve overnight.

Second, a spiritual path is always enhanced by a spiritual practice, such as reading and study or prayer, or journaling.

Third, we can arrange a life of greater simplicity, letting go of extravagance and excess in favor of paring life down to its essentials.

Fourth, we can strive to be as generous as possible to the congregation and to the causes we support, letting giving become more important in our lives.

Fifth, creating a Sabbath or deliberate rest day in our schedules can enhance a life of spiritual development.

Sixth, gathering regularly with other seekers, whether that’s in a small conversation group or at Sunday services or in study and reflection, can help us stay focused on maturity.

Seventh, reducing the input of the chaotic world into our homes by limiting TV use and internet access will provide quiet time and solitude in which to reflect and consider our own growth.

Eighth, reaching out in the community through church or other agency to provide services to the community is another step. And finally, welcoming the newcomer, sharing the journey, learning from others.

As I consider these steps I’m offering you today, I have to be self-critical about my own progress toward spiritual maturity. And I fall short in many ways. But perfection is not the goal; progress toward the goal matters more.

I would invite you to consider your own spiritual maturity. Do you yearn for a more fulfilling spiritual life? Do you wish that this congregation offered more opportunity for study and reflection, for discussion of spiritual matters? You are likely not alone! I believe that many of us yearn for deeper spiritual lives.

As we go into the holiday season, let us reflect on these ideas. Let’s discuss them when we get together, whether that’s over a meal or a cup of coffee or at our upcoming Conversation next Saturday night.

Let’s consider how we might offer more opportunity for spiritual growth in ourselves and in our congregation.

And let’s consider the exciting possibility of our own individual spiritual growth, becoming people whose lives have great depth and meaning because of our desire to grow.

Let’s pause for a time of silent reflection and prayer.

BENEDICTION: Our worship service, our time of shaping worth together, is ended, but our service to the world begins again as we leave this place. Let us go in peace, remembering that when we are together we are growing in wisdom and commitment and dedication to our ideals. May we live our ideals in the larger community and may we strive for deeper spiritual meaning in our lives, that our congregation might grow spiritually as well. Amen, Shalom, Salaam, and Blessed Be.

SING TOGETHER: Blest be the tie that binds our hearts in human care, The fellowship of kindred minds is precious for us to share.

Singing my obsessing away

I have the most annoying way of waking up in the night when it's too early to get up but too late to go back to sleep for any decent period of time and letting old worries enter my mind. It might be the fact that the FS has carpal tunnel or that Max seems to be off his feed or that an upcoming sermon topic has not begun to flesh itself out in my thoughts or that a situation in the congregation needs to be addressed and I don't know how. It's hard, when you're the minister and you're worried about a situation and you have been schooled to be the resident "non-anxious presence". You know that's what you've got to do, but it's hard, and this middle of the night obsessing doesn't make it easier.

That happened to me again this morning about 4 a.m. My mind immediately went to a situation I've been struggling with for a couple of months now and I began the hamster-wheel of reviewing possible approaches: say this, do that, whine, fret, get frustrated. You get the picture.

And then (not miraculously, because I had asked for serenity the night before in my prayer time) a song popped into my head, a song I'm singing lead on for Bayview Sound, a song I dearly love, which expresses for me many images of serenity and wellbeing. It's a Karla Bonoff song, which I have added to the bottom of this post.

And the song elbowed out the obsession, substituted its melody and sweet words for my fretting and anxiety: "Home sings me of sweet things, my life there has its own wings, to fly over the mountain, though I'm standing still." When the song ended in my mind, I fell asleep again and woke up an hour later still singing.

It's been rainy and windy for days, so here's what Max has been doing

I'm not particularly a country music fan but...

this song is a nice one, with some gorgeous pictures. The river has always been a spiritual symbol for me.