is a mix of fun and frustration. In the months since I offered my services to the tiny fellowship near my home, I've been blessed by a sense of greater connection to these parishioners and also concerned about whether what I am doing for them is good or hopeless.
At the time I proposed to use my ministry skills to help them deal with some of the holes in their programming (pastoral care and a resident minister who would preach on occasion), I knew I was only able to offer a stopgap ministry for them. I'm 71 years old, I'm not interested in fulltime parish ministry any more, and I don't want to go to board meetings.
But my call to ministry was persistent and wouldn't let me give up on the idea, so in March of this year I started serving up pastoral care to anyone in the congregation who needed it. Since that time, two desperately ill folks have died and their memorials either conducted or in the planning stages. Because these folks have never had a resident minister (they've had quarter-time ministers who drove down from Portland to do what they could in a long weekend), they've not been able to provide adequate pastoral care and they hardly knew what to do with someone when faced with a death. I've felt pretty useful in the pastoral care department and have counseled many a member through lesser crises.
Preaching is one of my favorite tasks of ministry and I thought it would be easy to recycle old sermons in my once-a-month pulpit gig, but it's not. Some of my old chestnuts are more inane now than they were five years ago. They might have served a need at the time, but now they're just creaky vehicles of old thinking. So I've decided I will no longer re-use any sermon which can't be personalized to the congregation, increasing my sense of satisfaction but also my time commitment.
In an effort to serve this farflung bunch of folks in a parish which extends from a small Washington coast town on the north to the bottom edge of our long, skinny Oregon coast county, I've initiated smaller local groups in coffee klatches or happy hours every month, hoping to learn more about people's lives in a smaller setting. This has been fruitful for the most part and we now have a healthy group of 5-9 who live way south of the county line. It meets on a Sunday morning to offer a UU opportunity to people who live too far away (more than 40 miles) to get to church regularly. A coffee klatch in a Washington setting attracts 3 or 4 folks on a Saturday afternoon and a happy hour at a local Astoria pub attracts as many as 12 on a Thursday evening. Folks enjoy these gatherings as time to be together outside of a Sunday social hour. And I enjoy them too.
I am trying to just enjoy what I am able to do without overextending myself. They pay me a small honorarium for my work and are very appreciative, but I know that giving more than a few hours a month can set up a pattern that sets too-high expectations, leaving them in the lurch if I should need to end my service. Because it seems unlikely to me, at this point, that I will continue this for more than a couple of years.
Will there be someone to pick up where I leave off? The congregation is dependent on the pledges of about 30 people; it rents space from a UCC group; it's primarily retirees and a few small families with kids. It's not growing much and has little growth future without more ministerial leadership; its layleaders are tired, having carried the ball for many years without much support. They can't afford to pay anyone an actual professional wage and the ministers who drove down for a long weekend in the past have been frustrated by the limitations of time, weather, and size.
I have considered how we might attempt a social action program of some kind, but with the limits of building access, travel distances, and size, I have concluded that it makes better sense to encourage people to make their individual social justice efforts in their own communities, rather than as a church body. I've been castigated for this decision by at least one non-member who has told me he's given up on us because of this "failure". But somebody who lives 20-40 miles away does not want to drive that distance on a rainy night (or day) to volunteer in a body, no matter how worthy the cause. And to tacitly limit participation only to those who live close to the cause seems to skew the effort somehow. Also, it would drastically increase the hours I'd commit to them for a pittance of an honorarium.
But we're having fun and I think they're learning what it means to have a minister, even one who can't do everything a fulltime minister might do. And I'm serving my call, in this small way.
An ongoing, eclectic commentary on Unitarian Universalism, after retirement from active ministry--as I see it, practice it, and love it, with sidebars on life, love and the pursuit of happiness.
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Monday, December 23, 2013
Parenting in Old Age...
Well, not REAL old age, of course, as I'm only 71 and a half and have been the recipient of admiring comments by the docs and nurses at the eye clinic where I've been this past year, making 21 round trips to Portland for surgeries and followup visits. One nurse put it well: "I hardly know any 71 year old women who don't take anything but vitamins!" Made me proud, even as I start to think about jettisoning most of my daily supplements.
Now that we've cleared up the old age issue, the real topic of this post is the re-learnings I'm having to make about being a mother. My dear son is 41 years old, with a wife and family, and every time I see him I have to re-learn how to be the mother of an adult.
How many times, for example, have I listened to other adults describe religious views which are somewhat different from mine, not needing to interrupt them or suggest another point of view? I can do this with just about anyone, from wildly, radically liberal to wildly, radically conservative---except my son. Can't keep my mouth shut when he reveals that he has gone a step farther than I have in his concept of the universe. Can't quit trying to redirect the topic. Can't understand why he thinks I'm being critical.
Somehow I think I have to keep on shaping and training him, even when he is well into the age of maturity and has done a pretty good job of shaping and training himself since he reached adulthood. He's a really decent man, smart, outspoken, funny, liberal, loving. The trajectory was set for him a long time ago; why is it so surprising to me that he has continued on that arc beyond the point at which he has outpaced me?
Granted, I know more about a few things than he does. But the ways he has outpaced me, knowledge-wise, are many. His world is so different from mine that there is no way to call him back. He was born in one world and has shot, lightning-like, into another world where he is the knowledgeable one and I am clinging to the few tendrils of mastery I still have.
Someday he will have to learn the techniques of parenting adult children. That's my only consolation right now, except for the firm conviction that he continues to be the same loving, caring boy-become-man who had to be urged to eat his vegetables long years ago. He's still eating his vegetables and he's still funny and quirky. I guess that's something, anyhow.
Now that we've cleared up the old age issue, the real topic of this post is the re-learnings I'm having to make about being a mother. My dear son is 41 years old, with a wife and family, and every time I see him I have to re-learn how to be the mother of an adult.
How many times, for example, have I listened to other adults describe religious views which are somewhat different from mine, not needing to interrupt them or suggest another point of view? I can do this with just about anyone, from wildly, radically liberal to wildly, radically conservative---except my son. Can't keep my mouth shut when he reveals that he has gone a step farther than I have in his concept of the universe. Can't quit trying to redirect the topic. Can't understand why he thinks I'm being critical.
Somehow I think I have to keep on shaping and training him, even when he is well into the age of maturity and has done a pretty good job of shaping and training himself since he reached adulthood. He's a really decent man, smart, outspoken, funny, liberal, loving. The trajectory was set for him a long time ago; why is it so surprising to me that he has continued on that arc beyond the point at which he has outpaced me?
Granted, I know more about a few things than he does. But the ways he has outpaced me, knowledge-wise, are many. His world is so different from mine that there is no way to call him back. He was born in one world and has shot, lightning-like, into another world where he is the knowledgeable one and I am clinging to the few tendrils of mastery I still have.
Someday he will have to learn the techniques of parenting adult children. That's my only consolation right now, except for the firm conviction that he continues to be the same loving, caring boy-become-man who had to be urged to eat his vegetables long years ago. He's still eating his vegetables and he's still funny and quirky. I guess that's something, anyhow.
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Searching for Spiritual Renewal
As I struggled to revamp last Sunday's recycled sermon on "The Still Small Voice", I was made acutely aware of my own spiritual desertland, the place I have inhabited for several months, maybe as long as I have been retired. I just haven't had a desire to go anywhere else but the desert. It hasn't felt like desert to me---I mean, there's the beach and the ocean and the new friends and the new activities and (at least for a few months) a new boyfriend (or, as Dr. Sheldon Cooper of BBT would say, "a boy who is a friend".
But I had been having pain ever since I moved here----in my teeth, on my skin, in my back, in my eye. Doctors and other practitioners fixed things pretty well----a root canal, a crown replacement, shingles medicine and ibuprofen, heat packs and massage, and five eye surgeries to salvage my dimming vision.
It took me until last Saturday night's Christmas concert in Cannon Beach for the obvious to strike: limited vision could mean more than just a detached retina. Five surgeries to get it fixed was significant, in that my rebellious retina seemed determined to get my attention---finally. What haven't I been paying attention to?
The sermon pretty well spelled it out as I revamped that old chestnut on spiritual growth, making it more up to date, more germane to my new location in life. It became obvious that my spiritual reservoirs were pretty well drawn down. The words penned years ago suddenly jumped out at me: transitions can do this to a person, can distract us with busyness and new adventures; grief can do this to a person, can tempt us to smother emotion with activities; changes of circumstances can short-circuit our ability to be mindful of the sacred moments in life. And pain, pain trumps it all.
How does the message become obvious? We may get sick, we may return to old negative habits or pick up new ones, our behavior seems a little out of bounds. Once we notice, we may be shocked. My limited vision was not just retinal in nature---it was more than that.
I have been distracting myself with a lot of stuff---the work I'm doing for the congregation, the classes I'm doing for ENCORE, the coffees on weekends with new friends, that sort of thing. None of these things are bad or hurtful. It's more that they keep my attention focused on externals, on Doing rather than Being.
This fall a couple of things cropped up that changed my focus. One of them was the Scandinavian trip with my sister. I began to look at my ethnic heritage in a new way, feeling more Scandinavian than I ever had. And I decided to get my DNA tested for its ethnic/geographical mix. The results were surprising and my reaction to the results was also surprising; I wasn't as Scandinavian as I thought---I was also Mediterranean and Southwest Asian. Initially, I even misread the results and proclaimed my Mediterranean heritage to be half as large as it actually was.
Then last Saturday night, I almost decided not to go to the concert, but my friends were singing and I wanted to hear the music. I was feeling less than Christmassy and hoped the songs would jumpstart me into a more festive mood.
During the first segment, pieces from The Messiah had my inner critic out in force-----how could anyone possibly still take the theology of The Messiah literally? The music and the harmony were wonderful, but the words? Good grief! I wanted to shout "you know, those words from Isaiah were probably written with King Hezekiah in mind, not Jesus!" which I'd learned in my Old Testament class in seminary.
Somehow I was able to recognize the damper that thought was putting on my mood and I breathed deeply, closed my eyes, and let the thought go away. In its place came the fragrance of something sharp and sweet, perhaps wafting from a person nearby. I saw in my mind's eye the vivid red and turquoise colors on a woman sitting near me. My brain moved from criticizing to noticing to feeling and I realized that for months I have put most emotional responses on hold. Most, that is, except for joy---which was easy to manufacture, given all the wonderful things about my new life.
I didn't let anger surface over the surgeries and the 20 round trips to Portland I had to make to get the eye taken care of, with the mounting expenses of dental care, with the pain of the shingles attack, or the end of the romance. I didn't let my frustration boil over during lengthy waits at the eye clinic; I just pasted on a smile and took a book. I don't have a partner to share these emotions with and the cats don't care, so I just pretended I didn't feel them.
It was confusing to feel the anger and frustration because of my deep gratitude to the docs and nurses at the eye clinic. They felt like guardian angels, making sure I came through each surgery in good shape. They were sympathetic and skilled. It didn't feel right to express my anger and frustration at them, so I swallowed it. And I swallowed a lot of extra food, too, so that I've gained back over ten pounds of the 40 I lost a couple of years ago.
When I had open heart surgery in 2000, my spiritual director Karin helped me see the surgery as a way of becoming literally more openhearted, more attuned to the meaning in each of life's events. When I recognized the retinal issue as possibly expressing the limited vision of my spiritual life, I had to ask myself---what am I not seeing?
It feels awfully good to be writing these things down. I am publishing them on the blog, because Ms Kitty's was the place I used to unload, discreetly but honestly. Take it from here, peeps.
But I had been having pain ever since I moved here----in my teeth, on my skin, in my back, in my eye. Doctors and other practitioners fixed things pretty well----a root canal, a crown replacement, shingles medicine and ibuprofen, heat packs and massage, and five eye surgeries to salvage my dimming vision.
It took me until last Saturday night's Christmas concert in Cannon Beach for the obvious to strike: limited vision could mean more than just a detached retina. Five surgeries to get it fixed was significant, in that my rebellious retina seemed determined to get my attention---finally. What haven't I been paying attention to?
The sermon pretty well spelled it out as I revamped that old chestnut on spiritual growth, making it more up to date, more germane to my new location in life. It became obvious that my spiritual reservoirs were pretty well drawn down. The words penned years ago suddenly jumped out at me: transitions can do this to a person, can distract us with busyness and new adventures; grief can do this to a person, can tempt us to smother emotion with activities; changes of circumstances can short-circuit our ability to be mindful of the sacred moments in life. And pain, pain trumps it all.
How does the message become obvious? We may get sick, we may return to old negative habits or pick up new ones, our behavior seems a little out of bounds. Once we notice, we may be shocked. My limited vision was not just retinal in nature---it was more than that.
I have been distracting myself with a lot of stuff---the work I'm doing for the congregation, the classes I'm doing for ENCORE, the coffees on weekends with new friends, that sort of thing. None of these things are bad or hurtful. It's more that they keep my attention focused on externals, on Doing rather than Being.
This fall a couple of things cropped up that changed my focus. One of them was the Scandinavian trip with my sister. I began to look at my ethnic heritage in a new way, feeling more Scandinavian than I ever had. And I decided to get my DNA tested for its ethnic/geographical mix. The results were surprising and my reaction to the results was also surprising; I wasn't as Scandinavian as I thought---I was also Mediterranean and Southwest Asian. Initially, I even misread the results and proclaimed my Mediterranean heritage to be half as large as it actually was.
Then last Saturday night, I almost decided not to go to the concert, but my friends were singing and I wanted to hear the music. I was feeling less than Christmassy and hoped the songs would jumpstart me into a more festive mood.
During the first segment, pieces from The Messiah had my inner critic out in force-----how could anyone possibly still take the theology of The Messiah literally? The music and the harmony were wonderful, but the words? Good grief! I wanted to shout "you know, those words from Isaiah were probably written with King Hezekiah in mind, not Jesus!" which I'd learned in my Old Testament class in seminary.
Somehow I was able to recognize the damper that thought was putting on my mood and I breathed deeply, closed my eyes, and let the thought go away. In its place came the fragrance of something sharp and sweet, perhaps wafting from a person nearby. I saw in my mind's eye the vivid red and turquoise colors on a woman sitting near me. My brain moved from criticizing to noticing to feeling and I realized that for months I have put most emotional responses on hold. Most, that is, except for joy---which was easy to manufacture, given all the wonderful things about my new life.
I didn't let anger surface over the surgeries and the 20 round trips to Portland I had to make to get the eye taken care of, with the mounting expenses of dental care, with the pain of the shingles attack, or the end of the romance. I didn't let my frustration boil over during lengthy waits at the eye clinic; I just pasted on a smile and took a book. I don't have a partner to share these emotions with and the cats don't care, so I just pretended I didn't feel them.
It was confusing to feel the anger and frustration because of my deep gratitude to the docs and nurses at the eye clinic. They felt like guardian angels, making sure I came through each surgery in good shape. They were sympathetic and skilled. It didn't feel right to express my anger and frustration at them, so I swallowed it. And I swallowed a lot of extra food, too, so that I've gained back over ten pounds of the 40 I lost a couple of years ago.
When I had open heart surgery in 2000, my spiritual director Karin helped me see the surgery as a way of becoming literally more openhearted, more attuned to the meaning in each of life's events. When I recognized the retinal issue as possibly expressing the limited vision of my spiritual life, I had to ask myself---what am I not seeing?
It feels awfully good to be writing these things down. I am publishing them on the blog, because Ms Kitty's was the place I used to unload, discreetly but honestly. Take it from here, peeps.
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
The Annual Christmas Letter
I want to get back in the habit of writing blog posts regularly, rather than just posting the most recent sermonal attempt, so I'm going to try to write at least weekly. Because there are readers of Ms Kitty's who are not on Facebook, I'm posting my annual catching-up-with-Ms. Kitty Christmas letter, herewith. The rest of you may talk quietly among yourselves.
Dear friends and family,
I
hope your year has been as full of good surprises and small challenges as mine
has. I’ve lived here in Gearhart,
on the north Oregon coast, for almost 18 months and have enjoyed nearly every
minute.
I’ve
made many new friends through the groups I’ve joined: the North Coast Land Conservancy, the Pacific UU Fellowship,
the continuing education program of Clatsop Community College (ENCORE), and the
Angora Hiking Club. In addition,
there’s a group of local Gearhart residents who gather for coffee at the local
coffee shop/bakery in town and I’ve attained “regular” status, meaning that when I walk in the door in the morning, John the proprietor has my cuppa already poured.
There
have been a few big events during the year, most notably the 12 day
Scandinavian cruise that my sister and I took in September, visiting our
ancestral lands. Our mother Mona
Larson Ketcham was Norwegian and Swedish and we loved seeing the countries
where her parents were born, bringing home a few souvenirs and many photographs
and memories. I’d love to go back
for a few months and travel more extensively in Norway and Sweden. We spent three days in Norway, one in
Sweden, and also visited the Shetland Islands, the Faroe Islands, and
Iceland. So much to see with so
little time!
Another
much-anticipated event was my 50th Linfield College reunion, for
which I served on the planning committee and as the emcee for the big
banquet. So much fun to see those
college friends again and renew those connections, this time as adults!
My
generally strong health helped me weather a couple of health situations: three weeks worth of shingles in the
spring and five months of trying to get the retina in my right eye to behave
itself. I’d had a shingles shot,
so that experience was pretty easy, though I swallowed a lot of ibuprofen! It has taken five surgeries to tame the
recalcitrant retina and I’m hopeful that it’s healed for good now. It just kept detaching and the docs at
Oregon Health Sciences University in Portland kept patching it back together
until now it’s pretty well healed up.
(Knock on wood!)
I’m
looking forward to the new year, when I’ll be leading a couple of classes for
the ENCORE group; one is Science Exchange, where attendees bring science news
to share, and the other is Life Experience, where attendees share the wisdom
they’ve accumulated over their years of life.
I’ve
been serving the Pacific UU Fellowship on a very parttime basis, offering them
pastoral care and preaching once a month and will continue that service for the
foreseeable future. The Call never
goes away!
I
hope the year to come will be as enjoyable as this one has been and I wish you
the very happiest of New Years yourself!
Much Love,
Ms. Kitty
Sunday, December 15, 2013
A Still Small Voice
As I was writing this sermon, it occurred to me that, because of the many little health issues and retirement issues I've dealt with over the past several months, I have not taken my own advice and sought spiritual renewal. It was so obvious to me last night as I sat listening to the beautiful music offered by the Cannon Beach Chorus (and my own still small voice?) that I immediately began to jot down quick reminders of what I'd let slide in my distraction. I'll be writing more posts on those topics, I hope, but first, here's today's sermon:
THE STILL SMALL VOICE
Rev. Kit Ketcham, Dec. 15, 2013
Every
year about this time, I become much more deeply aware of my craving for
spiritual renewal. It's a time of
year when my own reservoirs have often been drawn down by my own personal
matters, the latest news of war and hate, the ongoing needs of people I love
and serve, and I need to find new meaning in my life so that I can live with a
sense of abundance rather than deprivation.
This
experience of needing to refill one's spiritual reservoirs is common to many in
helping professions. It's also
common to caretakers, to people in transition who are moving from one stage of
life to another, to people who are grieving, to anyone who needs to find new
meaning in life.
We
get the message in a variety of ways----some of us find ourselves withdrawing
from others, some of us get sick, some of us go into therapy or self-help
programs, some take up a hobby, some may become addicted to one thing or
another.
When
we find ourselves craving too much solitude or cringing when someone needs us
to do something, when we find our behavior out of bounds for some reason, being
more irritable, more tired, more overwhelmed, more needy, these are often
signals that our spiritual reservoirs are low and we need to replenish them.
Many
of us come here to Sunday services hoping to find a place where we are not only
intellectually stimulated but also emotionally touched, where in the quiet
times or in the music, we hope for a sense of something bigger than ourselves,
a sense of connection to others, a moment we can carry away into our workaday
week.
The
need for spirituality in our lives is a common but tricky thing because it is
such a personal experience. For one person, it might be an insight triggered by
a poem or a speaker's words or the music; for another, it might be an emotional
sense of gratitude for an act of kindness. For others, these might not be
particularly significant at all.
But
I have learned over the years that I can become more attuned to the moments in
life which offer spiritual experience, whether they come during worship or
during an ordinary day. I have had to train myself to recognize them. I have
had to restructure my life a bit to be more open to them. I have had to go
looking for them. But I’ve learned
that I can't usually expect them to be administered by someone else, like a
dose of medicine; I have to be open to them myself.
I
found a little vignette that I think fits here, recounted by the late French
author Andre Gide. while he was in Africa years ago. He wrote:
"My
party had been pushing ahead at a fast pace for a number of days and one
morning when we were ready to set out, our native bearers, who carried the food
and equipment, were found sitting about without any preparations made for starting
the day.
Upon
being questioned, they said quite simply, that they had been traveling so fast
in these last days that they had gotten ahead of their souls and were going to
stay quietly in camp for the day in order for their souls to catch up with
them. So they came to a complete
stop."
We
human beings seem to be constantly in a state of movement of some
kind---particularly in our life stages, as parents, in marriage or singleness,
in job changes, even in retirement, just to name a few. It's important to recognize that the
changes in our daily lives affect our spiritual lives, just as the African
workers knew and addressed, when they needed to.
We
are often so busy and preoccupied with those changes, both big and little,
putting one foot in front of the other, that we are not able to be as mindful
of or open to spiritual experience as we might be at a different time.
Just
recognizing our human desire for spiritual experience is a positive step. Just
realizing that something that gave us spiritual sustenance at one time is no
longer so powerful---that's a huge insight in itself. It may not feel good but
it's a sign that a person is ready to grow and is starting to look around for
ways to nurture that growth.
It
can be helpful to look back over our lives and recognize the times in our lives
when we had an experience we might call a spiritual experience.
For
some people, it's the birth of a child; for others, a deep love felt for
another being. It can be a moment
in the woods or on a mountain top or in deep snow or on a stormy beach. For
some of us, it may be the latest jaw-dropping news out of the world of
science. But whatever the stimulus
is, it's a time when we experience
a sense of awe and wonder that may be new or familiar but gives us a chill of
recognition---so this is what it means to be alive.
Let's
take a moment together to reflect on those chilling moments of awe in our
lives. I invite us to enter into a
time of silence, to look back in our lives to a time that was particularly meaningful
in a way that felt bigger than ordinary moments. It might have triggered goose bumps or a sense of
recognition of something important.
Let's be silent for a little while. (1 minute or more; chime)
One
of my earliest spiritual experiences was sitting on a cold, windy hilltop out
in far eastern Oregon, near Ontario, with friends from our Baptist Youth
Fellowship, singing the old hymn "O Worship the King", as I watched
the sun come up on a stormy early Easter morning singing these words:
"O tell of his might, o sing of his grace,
whose robe is the light, whose canopy space;
his chariots of wrath the deep thunderclouds
form,
and dark is his path on the wings of the storm.
and
That bountiful care, what tongue can recite?
It breathes in the air, it shines in the light,
it streams from the hills, it descends to the
plain,
and sweetly distills in the dew and the
rain."
I
know that my experience may mystify some of you. It’s hard to explain why this was so important to me. But I was 16, looking for deeper
meaning in the faith I’d been brought up in, hungry for more than platitudes. Somehow singing these words, on this
stormy, cold morning as the sun came up, expanded my vision beyond mere
religious doctrine and connected it to the entire universe of light and space
and storm and loving care.
How
can I convey the sense of importance that I find in spiritual experience? How can I help others find spiritual
experience and connection themselves?
Sometimes
we don’t realize that we have drawn down our emotional and spiritual
reservoirs. Sometimes we shut off
the conduits of spiritual experience assuming that they have no meaning in a
rational life. I would invite you
to reconsider that assumption, for it’s easy to tune out this very real human
desire.
I
have learned that one thing that has helped me has been to have a regular
spiritual practice. Like walking
every day helps me stay fit for my physical life, a spiritual practice helps me stay in shape for my
spiritual life.
And
there are many spiritual practices, not just the traditional prayer and
meditation Some people read for
inspiration, some write in journals or write poetry, some dance, some sing,
some walk or run, some garden, some volunteer to serve others, some work with
their hands, or create art.
Prayer
is part of my spiritual practice, but mindfulness is the point of any spiritual
practice. When I pray that I will be a good minister, a good person, my prayer
reminds me to be mindful to look for the meaning in my life, because it is there
that I find my spiritual sustenance.
Mindfulness means listening for the still small voice of inner wisdom
that comes when I am touched by the spirit, the insight that may come when I am
open to it.
There’s
a wonderful story in the Hebrew scriptures about the ancient prophet Elijah who
needed wisdom and guidance in a troubled situation. He prayed to the spirit he called God to advise him; he believed he would know what to do if
he just listened.
As
he was beseeching his God for guidance, suddenly a great wind came up and swept
through the trees, knocking them down, causing rockslides, blowing dust and
debris through the air. Elijah
listened carefully but he did not find his answer in the wind.
An
earthquake shook the mountain where he was standing and great cliffs tumbled
around him. But even though he
listened, he found no answer in the earthquake.
Lightning
flashed from the sky and struck the dry brush around him, lighting it on
fire. But the answer was not in
the fire.
The
story goes on to say that after all these cataclysmic events had ended, Elijah
continued to listen, and after the fire came a still small voice. It was in that still small voice that
Elijah found his answer.
We
often think we’ll find our spiritual experiences in big moments, in times of
great drama and tension. And
sometimes we do. But more can be
found in the aftermath when we are still, when we take time to be
introspective, when we are alone, when we are able to be honest with ourselves,
when we experience emotion about something, when we are open to hearing the
still small voice of our own heart and mind as we have been touched by the
experience.
Let's
return to the silence for a few moments and let the quiet of this room seep
into our minds and hearts.
During this time, I invite you to let your mind be open to your own
inner wisdom, however it may reveal itself. (1 min. chime)
We
may each discover some personal way that spiritual meaning comes to us. Spiritual experience is something we
can learn to see; we can cultivate the ability to recognize the spiritual in
our lives. Spiritual experiences
are not, in my humble opinion, just nice things to have happen to us. They can be trail markers and
guideposts, they may be telling us something, something that our rational
approach to life has yet to see.
As
Karen and I were talking about today’s topic, I asked her about her own
spiritual experiences, what she had found valuable. If you know Karen, you won’t be surprised to hear that
working with animals offers her many of her spiritual experiences. Most of us know that she volunteers at
the Wildlife Rescue service here in Clatsop County. Karen told me that she’d been packing cats around ever since
she could walk!
Camping
trips with family connected her to
the natural world. Just breathing
the clear air, being in the trees, on the beach, all these things have led her
to a deep connection to and appreciation of nature. She says “my heart rate drops, I feel at peace with the
world, tranquil.” And she finds
this tranquility and sense of peace when she runs.
Many
of us know that Karen is a runner, spending time every possible day alone out
in the open air (not in a gym or on a treadmill!) running.
She
feels exhilarated, high, in total harmony with her life. Even though running is hard work for
most of us, Karen finds it restful and clarifying. She told me of a wonderful moment during one run.
It
was evening and she was alone, pounding along a snow-covered trail near her
home. The moon was rising, the stars
brilliant overhead. As she reveled
in the cool sweet air, feeling her body respond to the physical demands of
running, she heard a sudden noise, and before she could make sense of it, out
from the shelter of a culvert a passel of deer took flight, startled by her
footsteps----shadowy, alert, responsive to her presence.
She says she stopped, stunned, struck by
their beauty and their presence on that beautiful night. As she watched, the moment was embedded
in her mind and heart as one of the valuable spiritual experiences of her life,
one she returns to when she needs a little spiritual renewal.
Karen’s
experience with the deer reminds me of a time when I camped with a friend on
the banks of the Platte River near Kearney, Nebraska. It was very early spring and the sandhill cranes were
migrating. We hoped to see them in
flight.
Early
that morning, before the sun was up, I joined a host of others on a small
bridge over the river. We could
see the shadowy forms of cranes in the water and fields but were totally taken
by surprise when, at some unseen signal, thousands of cranes lifted up and flew
over our heads, all at once, uttering their eerie call. I vividly remember the awe and
wonderment I felt at that time.
Let's
spend some more time in silence together and this time I invite us to think
about the times we may have experienced something that caused us wonderment and
a sense of awe and what our response to it may have been. (1 min, chime)
Recognizing
our need for spiritual sustenance, listening for the still small voice, and
responding to its call----these are the elements of spiritual growth.
My
use of periods of silence during this sermon are a partial response to the
urging of a still small voice in me, because I have learned that silence works
for many of us. We may not have
much silent time to spend listening for a still small voice. Worship services may be that important
chance to be still and listen, even though these periods of silence are very
brief.
As
we go our separate ways today, I hope we will return in our hearts and minds to
that place of stillness where we can listen for the still small voice of wisdom
and guidance that lives inside of us.
We
may call it God, we may call it our inner self, we may call it human nature----it
doesn't matter what the words are.
But that still small voice represents our best selves, guiding us to
goodness, not evil; guiding us toward life, not death; guiding us to growth,
not stagnation; guiding us to health, not sickness.
We
are in the season of the year called Advent, in the Christian world. Advent means beginnings. May we find in times of stillness the
beginnings of new spiritual life.
Let’s
pause once again for a time of silence.
Our
closing hymn is #83, Winds Be Still
BENEDICTION: Our worship service, our time of
shaping worth together, is ended, but our service to the world begins again as
we leave this place. Let us go in peace, remembering that
mindfulness of the spiritual meaning in every moment of our lives is a key to
growing as spiritual beings. May
we listen for the still small voice, may we heed its wisdom, and may we grow in
spirit as we move forward in our lives.
Amen, Shalom, Salaam, and Blessed Be.
Sunday, November 24, 2013
Turning Toward the Morning
This sermon was introduced by a rendition of Gordon Bok's song "Turning Toward the Morning".
TURNING TOWARD THE MORNING
Rev. Kit Ketcham, Nov. 24,
2013, PUUF
I
remember discovering this song that we’ve just heard at a fairly bleak time of
my life. It was late fall in Colorado, the golden aspen groves on the mountain
slopes were now starkly bare of their leaves, we’d had two feet of snow on
Halloween, my marriage was over, my son was struggling, my paycheck barely
lasted from month to month, and I was dreading the cold Rocky Mountain winter
ahead.
One
of my great pleasures in life then was attending the monthly acoustic music
jams of the Denver Friends of Folk Music. And one Saturday night, a fellow
folkie requested this song, and its words resonated with me and my anxious
mood.
I
was curious to know where the song came from. I was familiar with the New
England composer Gordon Bok’s work and looked for something from Gordon Bok
about why he wrote the song “Turning Toward the Morning”. Here’s what I found.
"One of the things that provoked this song was a
letter last November from a friend who had had a very difficult year and was
looking for the courage to keep on plowing into it. Those times, you lift your
eyes unto the hills, as they say, but the hills of … November can be about as
much comfort as a cold crowbar.
“You have to look ahead a bit, then, and realize that
all the hills and trees and flowers will still be there come Spring, usually
more permanent than your troubles. And if your courage occasionally fails,
that's okay, too: nobody expects you to be as strong (or as old) as the land."
- Gordon Bok”
I
liked that idea, of not dwelling too much on the bleakness of today’s troubles
and deliberately looking ahead to the brighter days of spring.
But
I also liked another, less obvious, theme within this song and that was the
idea that this man took his friend Joanie’s sorrow seriously and gave her the
one gift he felt he had to give: a song that reminded her that he cared about
her sorrow and, with his music, might help her lift her sight from the icy mud
of her surroundings and offer her courage and support by pointing to the simple
fact that the world is always turning toward the morning.
Late
fall can be a hard time of year, as the days grow shorter and shorter, sunny
days are few and far between, and the darkness consumes more and more of our
waking hours. It’s cold and often rainy and windy; we worry when the power goes
out, unsure of how long it will be out and whether we will be able to stay
warm. And the season seems to grind on and on. Often the upcoming holidays just
add to our anxiety and gloom.
Spring
seems very far away in November. The holidays can distract us, but we need more
than distraction sometimes. We need people and places we can depend on. We need
to find the truths about the world that sustain us, give us hope, give us reason
to keep pushing on, even when life’s troubles have overcome us and we see no
easy way out.
Sometimes
the only way out is through and November is like that.
I
thought of friendship as a theme for this service because Thanksgiving
signifies the beginning of a season of waiting for the light, of celebrating,
in various faith traditions, the hope inherent in the change of seasons at the
winter solstice, the sustaining grace of a menorah that never goes dim, the
sweet joy of a child’s birth, all occasions of growing light and diminishing
darkness.
These
relics of legend and history
represent the truth of light and warmth and survival, of the mystical and the
pragmatic, of the life process that includes both birth and death, both
darkness and bright splendor.
Remember
that old camp song “Make new friends but keep the old, one is silver and the
other gold”? Or Carole King’s “You’ve Got a Friend” and Paul Simon’s “Bridge
Over Troubled Waters”. All these songs speak of the faithfulness and kindness
of friends, the human need for friendship and connection with companions, the
need for friends to see us through tough times.
I
used to be kind of wary of making friends, never quite sure I could count on
them. Even best friends have a way of occasionally letting us down or hurting
us. Sometimes we learn that a person we thought of as a friend really doesn’t
like us very much or inexplicably disappears from our lives.
Sometimes
there are exclusions that deliver a message---you’re not our kind of people, so
we’re not inviting you to the party, to our church, to our inner circle. Ouch!
I suspect we’ve all had a few moments like these. And
some of them we brush off because they’re not important; others make us feel
rejected at a deep level, make us wonder if we are worthy of friendship.
I
was talking with a person awhile back about an experience she’d had in which
she felt excluded---possibly unintentionally, but….she wasn’t sure. And it
stirred up old feelings for her, of times when she’d felt similarly excluded or
watched others being excluded. Even though she was long past those experiences,
the reminders stung.
What
are our experiences with friendship? Where do we find our closest friends and
comrades? How many of us here still have some contact with friends from our
early days, maybe even elementary school? How long have you known your
longest-term friend? (?????)
Why
do we maintain contact with some of our earliest friends? What keeps us coming
back to them?
Erin
and I talked a bit about the common characteristics of our favorite
friendships: both of us noticed that there was a deep comfort level with these
friends, a sense of mutual understanding, both spoken and unspoken. These were mostly long-term friendships,
deepening over time. There was
always an aspect of fun, of zaniness that was allowable with these
friends. And there was, too, a
serious side, when we supported each other through tough times.
I’ve
often noticed that shared loss can create a bond. Long years ago, one of my
best high school friends, Audrea Montee, died of liver cancer. Audrea and I had
palled around all during grade school and high school; she was a crackerjack
softball player, smacking that ball way out into left field and then trotting
leisurely around the bases as fielders scrambled after the ball which was often
lost in the weeds of the far outskirts of the diamond. Audrea was pretty
chubby, which slowed her down a bit as she rounded the bases, but she was the
home run queen of our class.
She
and I were friends partly because we were both kind of teenage misfits, me
because I was a preacher’s kid and a brainiac and she because she was
heavy and had to wear matronly clothes, instead of the popular Pendleton
reversible skirts that were a hot item in high school. I didn’t have such a
skirt either, so we had that in common, but mainly we just liked each other.
She was funny and smart and shrugged off the teasing she got because of her
weight; I learned how to do that from her.
When
she died at about age 50, a consciousness of mortality seemed to hit some of us
McEwen High School grads hard. Out of our tiny graduating class of 20 or so,
eight had died young, some in farm accidents or car wrecks, some by cancer or
other disease. And so it became important to us who still lived to find each
other and hang on.
When
I moved back to the PNW in 1999, we started getting together, sometimes in
Athena, sometimes at each others’ homes. And a core group of six women formed
that has become one of the most important friendship groups I’ve ever
experienced.
The
interesting thing is that we weren’t close friends in high school, though we
knew each other well. All of the other women in the group were part of a
different crowd. They could date and go to the movies or go dancing; they had
boyfriends and were cheerleaders. I didn’t and I wasn’t. My social life
consisted of Baptist Youth Fellowship and other church activities. My school
achievements were Honor Roll and Student Body treasurer. Not the stuff of high
school dreams!
But
in our later years, when we were all in our fifties, we needed each other
because our world was changing. No matter where we lived, what our careers
meant to us, whatever our different circumstances had been in high school, the
people who had been part of our lives for such a long time were dying.
We
couldn’t keep that from happening, but we could forge bonds of friendship that
honored our long association and the common memories of growing up together in
our small community.
Not
long after Audrea’s death, another friend, Donna Myers, died suddenly of a
massive heart attack. And what had been just a vague idea in our minds became a
project. Donna’s grandson, Riley, was in Doernbecher Children’s hospital in
Portland with leukemia and the family had no health insurance. Could we help
Donna’s family?
Somebody
discovered that a softball tournament in Pendleton was being organized as a
fundraiser. Maybe we could participate! How long had it been since any of us
played softball? How good would we be without our slugger, Audrea? It didn’t
matter.
So
on a chilly November Saturday almost ten years ago, “Donna’s Team” formed and
played the crummiest softball you ever saw. But luckily, it was one of those
jokester games where all you had to do was pay off the umpire and get a re-do
on your strike-out or your being tagged at home plate. We played with toy bats
and hollow plastic softballs. We actually won one game, thanks to my son Mike’s
willingness to play and be one of the goofier, more entertaining players on the
field.
I
still have my Donna’s team t-shirt and hat, mementos of a time when friends
fought back the dark for a little boy whose Grandma had been one of us.
We
need each other, sometimes, to fight back the dark. Sometimes friends come to
our aid when we have an emergency; they take us in when the power goes out;
they cover for us when we are ill. They take us up to Portland when we have an
emergency. They buck us up by listening understandingly (or just by listening,
whether they understand us or not!), even if they can’t do a thing to help.
We
receive countless gifts from our friends, intangibles we can hardly name. And
what do we give, what can we give, in return for this kindness and support?
The
thing is, friends give their presence and their aid without any expectation of
return. It’s not a you scratch my back and I’ll scratch yours, much of the
time. It’s somebody stepping in when there are few other alternatives; it’s
somebody seeing our need when we are reluctant to admit our neediness.
It’s
not, usually, a “calling in of a chip” as we hear in the gangster movies on TV.
“He owes me a favor” seems more like a business deal than an act of friendship,
though I imagine sometimes that’s what we need.
What
have been some of the gifts you’ve received in the past months? Thanksgiving
has become a time to express our gratitude for blessings received. Because of
the economic uncertainty in our country, our blessings may have morphed from
material things to generosity measured in a different way.
What
are the gifts you have received recently from others? Let’s take a moment to
reflect and then share some of those gifts. (think, share)
The
generosity of both friends and strangers, plus our family members, is a sweet
thing to consider. These gifts of time and energy fill our hearts and give us
strength for the cold days ahead.
But
gratitude is a two way street. We receive gratefully from others, cherishing
the thought and the generosity that those gifts of spirit entail. And we also
give those gifts to others, grateful for the opportunity to be a giver of gifts
of spirit.
You
and I have doubtless encountered many people who give only so they can receive
something in return. There’s something uncomfortable about being either the
giver or receiver with a person like that. The best gifts are given with no
expectation of return; the best gifts are received with no expectation of
payback. These are gifts of the spirit.
What
are the spiritual gifts you have to give to others? Let’s take a moment to
reflect, once again, and then share some of those thoughts. (think, share)
The
gifts of the spirit are numerous and have often been incorporated as pillars of
some of the world’s great religions. They are universal values and we all have
them to impart and to receive.
Here’s
what I think, after considering how we might both give and receive the gifts of
the spirit. I want to tell you
about seven gifts of the spirit that I have found valuable.
One
of them is wisdom. We seek wisdom from others and we are able to offer our own wisdom
to those who seek it from us. Wisdom is the result of our own life experiences
and can be both general and specific.
Another
is understanding. We strive to understand another’s life circumstances and to
extend that understanding to those we meet. When someone really understands us
and we know it, that gift is priceless.
How
about the ability to make good decisions? This comes from conscience, the
ability to differentiate between right and wrong. We support others who make
good decisions, who choose for the right instead of the wrong; and we receive
from those who make right decisions, because we are better able to choose right
behavior ourselves because of them.
Then
there’s courage, revealed in the strength of character that develops when we
don’t back away from situations that scare us, when we accompany a friend on a
journey through terminal illness, when we encourage another to do the hard,
fearsome thing because it’s right.
Knowledge
is another gift. Our knowledge of the universe and of a life of integrity
offers us a way to find meaning in life despite its apparent randomness. We can
share knowledge when appropriate and we can receive knowledge gracefully, even
when it contradicts a fondly held belief.
Wonder
and awe are a gift that is sometimes lacking in us worldly adults. We often let
go of our ability to stand struck with awe at the beauty of the universe and of
the human creation; children give us back this gift, many times over. But this
is a gift we can give ourselves, as well as others, if we just take the time.
Reverence
is the final gift on my list, though there are many I haven’t mentioned. Our
desire for rationality and empirical experience sometimes makes it hard to be
reverent in the face of our knowledge of good and evil, especially when evil
seems so much more in evidence than good. But reverence has the ability to
infuse daily life with deeper meaning, like water on a withered plant.
Gordon
Bok sings his gift of spirit to his friend Joanie, “oh, my Joanie, don’t you
know that the stars are swinging slow, and the seas are rolling easy, as they
did so long ago, if I had a thing to give you, I would tell you one more time,
that the world is always turning toward the morning.”
Let’s pause for a time of silent reflection and prayer.
BENEDICTION:
Our worship service, our time of shaping worth together,
is ended, but our service to the world begins again as we leave this place. Let
us go in peace, remembering that we have gifts of the spirit to offer to each
other and spiritual gifts to receive as well. May we reflect upon the gifts we
have to give; may we receive gratefully the gifts that others hold out; and may
we hold fast to the truth, that the world, both literally and metaphorically,
is always turning toward the morning. Amen, Shalom, Salaam, and Blessed Be.
Sunday, November 10, 2013
The Evolution of God
THE EVOLUTION OF GOD
Rev. Kit Ketcham, Nov. 10, 2013
It
was a beautiful afternoon in fall on a Rocky Mountain hillside, where I sat enjoying the blue skies and warm sun
with friends who had gathered at the home of a fellow member of Jefferson
Unitarian Church, my church home there in Golden, Colorado.
I’d
recently entered seminary and was beginning the school year excitedly engaged
in studies of pastoral care, Old Testament, and Church History, surrounded by
students from all different Christian backgrounds with a variety of doctrines
and dogmas.
I
felt a little like an outsider at seminary; I was one of only a handful of
Unitarian Universalist students, there at Iliff School of Theology in Denver, a
very liberal Methodist seminary.
But I was loving my studies, feeling my brain stretch and my own
theology grow clearer, as I compared it to the theology of my more traditional
classmates.
Next
to me in a lawn chair, was an older gentleman named Jakob, who was interested
in what I was studying at Iliff, and during our conversation, he mentioned that
he was a pretty staunch atheist.
I’d known Jakob for many years and I knew this about him, so it occurred
to me to ask him “what do you believe in, Jakob?” He paused a moment and then…
“Nature,”
he said. “Nature. That’s what I believe in---the laws of
nature, the way the universe works, the plants, the animals, the laws which
govern life and how everything connects to everything else. I don’t believe in God. I believe in Nature.”
In
my grad school-induced arrogance, I almost said to him, “but Jakob, it’s just
that your God is Nature”. Luckily,
I had retained enough of my mother’s teachings about respecting one’s elders to
keep my mouth shut and just listen; consequently I went home that evening
pondering Jakob’s words and marveling at their implications. It was another step in my own evolution
of an understanding of the power beyond human power, which some call God.
Several
years ago, I entered a 12 step program to find peace of mind after a number of experiences
with alcoholic friends.
In
a 12 step program, one is asked to find a Higher Power and use its strength to
change one’s behavior. I’d
outgrown my “old white guy on a throne” concept of God and when they told me
that my Higher Power only had to be something stronger than myself, I thought
of my hours of hiking up steep trails in the Rockies, defying and yet using
gravity to get stronger every step of the way, and I decided to use Gravity as
my Higher Power. There seemed to
be a connection there.
When
I had my conversation with Jakob, I was ready to grow again and his concept of
Nature as Higher Power was very appealing to me. In fact, I’d already realized that gravity was only a piece
of my higher power, that the entire universe seemed to be an infinite power
that included much, much more, most of it mysterious and only partially
understood by science.
In
my former congregations we’ve talked about “the driving force, the creative
force in the universe, which many call God”. With
you here today, I’d like to consider how human understanding of that power
beyond human power, that which drives the universe, creates the universe, has
evolved over the millennia of recorded human history.
It’s
interesting to me that human history reveals, both in the larger sense and in
the more personal sense, a concept of “God” that has generally evolved from a
figure of parental-type authority to loving presence to independence from a
fixed image.
In
the earliest reaches of human history, the power beyond human power, or God or
Goddess, was revealed in weather, in seasons, in drought and flood; it was a
force to be appeased, bargained with, sacrified to. Whether that force was seen to be male or female, it mostly
was a rule-maker, a boundary keeper, a teacher. I can imagine mythical and metaphorical Mother Earth and
Father Sky giving instructions:
“Now, children, wind and rain and snow can kill you; so make shelter,
and, by the way, use fire when you discover it as a gift of weather.
“It
will be hot for a period of time; it will then cool down; it will get much
colder for a period of time (of course I’m excluding the tropical zone); then
it will warm up again and the cycle will repeat endlessly. Each season will bring certain kinds of
weather, mostly unpredictable; learn to cope.”
Humans
tried to influence the weather, the seasons, the drought and the flood, using
prayer, sacrifice, bargaining with the seen or unseen Gods and Goddesses. Some of it seemed to work; when it
didn’t, it was assumed that the deities were displeased or busy elsewhere or
had a different plan.
Across
the globe, human beings were generally polytheistic, ascribing power to the sun
and moon, earth, stars, trees and animals, considering them the beings which
controlled their lives, sent the weather, governed the seasons, controlled
fertility, birth and death, and were only partly predictable. Female deities were common and Mother
Earth was seen by many to be the primary Deity.
So
reverence for a God or Goddess figure was initially, and logically, attached to
nature. Not so different from my
friend Jakob’s perspective, though Jakob, as a scientist himself, had a lot
more academic knowledge to call upon to make that judgment.
Interestingly,
ancient peoples often argued with their gods and goddesses, threatening to
withhold sacrifice and obedience if the deities didn’t shape up. And intriguing rituals accompanied some
of these interchanges.
Robert Wright, in his book
“The Evolution of God”, recounts a ritualistic “interchange” between a
Siberian native man and the wind, in which buttocks are bared to the breeze and
incantations shouted at the wind, in an effort to stop the wind’s incessant and
damaging blast.
Lest
any of you be tempted to try this, it probably worked about as well as our own
hopes and prayers when a wind storm is predicted! Mother Nature, whether by indigenous or modern standards, is
notoriously hard to influence.
Me, I just pray that I can cope, if the power goes out. And that some kind family will take me
in once again.
Eventually,
polytheism began to lose ground to monotheism, to a powerful, all-purpose Deity
who was jealous of other Gods and told his followers (for by now God was a He) to follow his
commandments or he’d get mad. If
they were good, he’d bless them, give them land of their own, harken to their
prayers. Early scriptures bear
this out but the willful Israelites were unwilling to give up their old gods
and goddesses completely and frequently invoked the One God’s wrath, causing
Him to threaten and punish those He called His Chosen People.
The
Abrahamic religions---Judaism, Islam, and Christianity----are descendents of
that God-form, having themselves evolved out of the experience and the
necessities of human living in early times.
But
monotheism has had its own set of problems. The God of Abraham was a top-down, moralistic, parental
authority upon whom followers were to be utterly dependent. This God was male in form and in
language, which has encouraged followers to assume that God intended that human
males be dominant and females be submissive.
Patriarchy
was the starting place for a triumvirate of Abrahamic religions that eventually
dominated the early Western world.
God’s attributes were measured by human attributes, making assumptions
about God’s opinions, God’s preferences, and God’s marching orders.
This
God was rather cruel and autocratic much of the time. This God kicked native peoples out of their lands so that
the Chosen Ones could live there.
This God sent an avenging angel to kill firstborn Egyptian children,
among other plagues, to allow His People to escape into the desert, even though
they weren’t happy once they got there.
The
history of God as portrayed in the Hebrew scriptures is that of a strict and
punishing male parent. Scholars
like Karen Armstrong and others have posited that when God created humankind,
he (like all parents) found himself with unanticipated problems on his
hands. The Hebrew legends around
the creation of humankind portray God’s children as independent thinkers whose
curiosity landed them in trouble and eventually got them kicked out of Eden.
This
God got so upset with human behavior that he decided to drown all but a few and
start over. Hence the legend of
Noah and the ark, with its male and female starter species.
When
Jesus began his ministry centuries after the Israelites established a
monotheistic tradition, he had been raised and educated in the Jewish tradition
of a God who demanded that certain purities be maintained, that certain customs
were required of devout Jews, and that God was a Father figure. Indeed, Jesus called his God “Father”
and, in times of greatest crisis, even called God “Abba” or Daddy.
Christianity
modified the portrait of God to include a male parent’s loving side and brought
a female near-deity into the family constellation. Mary, the mother of Jesus, became a figure women Christians
could identify with and even venerate.
But as the concept of the Trinity evolved, the idea that God was Three
in One---Father, Son and Holy Spirit---in that scenario, Mary was merely the
mother, albeit the mother of a God figure. Mary was a mortal, after all, and had only been the
recipient of God’s grace, not a God figure herself.
We
need to remember that monotheism, the idea that God is One, was at stake. Even the doctrine of the Trinity, the
idea that Father, Son, and Holy Spirit were identical to each other and were
simply different functions of the One God, was a stretch for many, including
our ancient Unitarian ancestors.
Acceptance
of the idea of the One God was pretty much universal in the world influenced by
the Abrahamic religions for centuries after Jesus’ ministry. There were skeptics, to be sure,
particularly around the concept of the Trinity, but belief in God was unquestioned
by most. Heretics were punished,
sometimes cruelly as in the case of our own religious ancestor, the young
Spanish doctor Michael Servetus who was burned at the stake for his denial of
the Trinity and Jesus as God.
But
as understandings of the natural world grew and science became an influential
resource to human beings, particularly to those with access to education, a
period of time known as The Enlightenment in the eighteenth century brought
huge wide-spread change and conflict about religious ideas and the very concept
of Creation and the nature of the universe.
No
longer did every facet of human living depend on belief in God. The earth revolved around the sun, not
the sun around the earth.
Discoveries about any number of everyday things, such as plants and
seasons and the movement of the stars in the sky, created new questions in
human minds.
Before
this time, belief in God was taken for granted. Not to believe meant abandoning any coherent world
picture. This was unthinkable to
most humans in that time in history.
But
emboldened by new ideas and knowledge, thinkers of many stripes took courage
and began to wonder: what is the
real authority of the church and why does the church demand human obedience? Those who traveled observed other
religious practices and saw that there was a larger world than the one which
accepted the idea of One God with three manifestations; there were nontheistic
religions such as Buddhism and Confucianism and there were polytheistic
religions as well.
Three
different conceptions of God, through the lenses of Judaism, Islam, and
Christianity, called into question the idea of One God. Each of these Gods had such different
characteristics----how could they be the same God? And yet again, humankind’s shaping of the idea of God was
illuminated. No longer was it so
clear that God had created humans in his image; perhaps humans had created the
God that they wanted to create.
So---that’s
a quickie rundown on the history of the concept of God up to about now. It’s not exhaustive, it’s a
little irreverent, and my knowledge is far from complete, but what I’ve tried
to do so far is establish that as human understandings of the universe have
progressed, humans have increased their questioning of the reality of God or
Gods or Goddess.
Part
of it is due to our increased scientific understandings and discoveries. Part of it is due to the relaxed
insistence on belief in a Deity.
Part of it is due to our own mystical spiritual experiences which may
lead us along non-traditional paths.
I’ve
collected some quotes from scholars and theologians about their own concepts of
the power beyond human power.
For
example, Albert Einstein said this:
“It was the
experience of mystery, even if mixed with fear, that engendered religion. A
knowledge of the existence of something we cannot penetrate, of the
manifestations of the profoundest reason and the most radiant beauty. It is
this knowledge and this emotion that constitute the truly religious attitude.
In this sense, and in this alone, I am a deeply religious man. I cannot
conceive of a God who rewards and punishes his creatures, or has a will of the
type of which we are conscious in ourselves. Enough for me, the mystery of the
eternity of life and the inkling of the marvelous structure of reality,
together with the single-hearted endeavor to comprehend a portion, be it ever
so tiny, of the reason that manifests itself in nature.”
James
Luther Adams, a renowned pacifist and Unitarian theologian, said and I am
paraphrasing and pulling together a couple of related ideas:
“God
is the power that holds the world together. We are called by God to participate in holding the world
together and we are seduced to return to the task of putting the world back
together again and again. God is
the force in the Universe that calls us to love.”
In
the 60’s, a theologian, John T. Elson, the religion editor of Time Magazine,
wrote an article entitled “Is God Dead?” which illuminated the shifting sands
of theology and belief as religion tried to accommodate scientific
discoveries. The article stripped
bare the fact that there are multiple concepts of God and that the traditional
“old man in the sky” was woefully out of sync with science. Therefore, was it possible, even
likely, that God as we knew God was actually dead.
Elson
wrote: “Secularization,
science, urbanization---all have made it comparatively easy for the modern man
(and woman) to ask where God is and hard for the man (and woman) of faith to
give a convincing answer, even to him or her self.”
Henry
Nelson Weiman, another Unitarian theologian and philosopher, offered this
definition of God: “God is
an event, a Creative Event, an event of Creative Interchange. God is Creativity. God is trustworthy, reliable, and
sustaining. God is that which can
transform and save humans in ways in which we cannot transform ourselves,
provided that we understand and fulfill the requisite conditions.”
Feminist
theologians have illuminated the feminine face of the power beyond human power.
They cite the earliest evidence of
deity worship as being the worship of Mother Earth, for female powers of
reproduction, of community, and nurture, and many religious people today honor
and revere the feminine attributes of the Goddess, rather than a male figure of
God.
Atheist
writers who have become popular in recent years have primarily stated their
rejection of the traditional view of God as an anthropomorphic figure,
omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent.
I have not heard much from them about other concepts of God or Goddess
and wonder if they too are out of sync with new ideas of God.
Yet
quantum physics has revealed an entirely new possibility about the power beyond
human power. As the Large Hadron
Collider lurches toward its grand experiment of recreating a smaller version of
the Big Bang, the event which appears to have set the universe in motion, it is possible that science may unveil
the deepest roots of the universe yet explored, if they find the elusive Higgs
boson, the subatomic particle dubbed “the God Particle”.
And
will they find God? Well, probably
not the God most people assume is the Ruler of the Cosmos.
So
where are we? Here’s what I think.
I’ve
noticed that the power beyond human power, which some call God or Goddess, can
be viewed through many lenses.
Even as a parent or guardian can be called a mother or a father or a
chauffeur or a cook or a teacher or a cruel tyrant or any number of other
names, so can God and Goddess.
There
is the lens of religion: God as a
personal servant and ruler.
There’s the lens of physics:
God as energy. Of
psychology: God as emotional
need. Of biology: God as creator, God as mere brain
chemistry. Of evolution: God as an orderly, purposeful
system. Of Love: God as human connection and nurture. Of parent: God as protector, caretaker. Of child: God
as rule-maker, guidance giver.
Of
art: God as designer, creator of
beauty. Of indigenous person: God as nature and ancestral wisdom. Of poetry: God as metaphor and simile. Of fear: God as
the punisher. Of ethics: God as source of the moral order. Of the abstract: God as ground of being, Ultimate
Reality. Of the concrete: God as old white guy in the sky.
I’ve
probably missed your favorite lens and you can tell me later what yours might
be or if you disagree. But I think
it all comes back to the recognition that there are so many ways to think of
the power beyond human power, so many ways we have found to use that power both
for secular and spiritual and religious meaning, so many names and faces for
God, that it is useless to argue about whose version is right.
A
member of my Whidbey congregation, Ken Merrell, once spoke about a discovery he
had made in his religious journey:
that when we encounter different language and ideas from our own, rather
than dismissing them as useless or offensive, we might try translating those
words and ideas into our own language and worldview, to see if we and those who
are different from us have any common ground. And I would reiterate Ken’s wisdom: we all have different ideas about what
the idea of God means. Let’s share
those ideas, rather than reject each other because we don’t speak the same
language.
The
Evolution of God is a journey of countless millennia, from prehistory to the
present. The Evolution of our
personal understandings of the concept of God has taken our whole lifetimes and
continues to offer opportunities to change our minds. Whether we are theists, nontheists, atheists or
agnostics, we can learn from each other and respect each other’s language and
experiences, both here and in the larger community. As Ken has said, the key is to translate! You too can be religiously bi-lingual!
Let’s
pause for a time of silent reflection and prayer.
BENEDICTION: Our worship service, our time of
shaping worth together, is ended, but our service to the world begins again as
we leave this place. Let us go in
peace, remembering that all humankind shares a reliance on the faithfulness of
that power beyond human power, which we call by many names. May we respect one another’s language
and thoughts, listening carefully that we might learn from one another. And may we offer to our children, our
grandchildren, friends and family the opportunity to think large about what it
means to have faith in these troubled times. Amen, Shalom, Salaam, and Blessed Be.
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